"Let's Just Admit It. When We Break A Person's Heart, We Break A Little Too."

A Winter Tragedy

Amidst the tragedy of it all, the snow fell over our darkest sins, in haunting words I confess to my psychiatrist.   I was as pure as the winter snow, beautiful and cold, a masterpiece he desired but now I am merely a ghost. Trapped beneath the floorboards that bellow and breathe, behind locked doors listening to demons he talks to in his sleep.

© October, 2020  Kathlene

— Arundhati Roy, The God of Small Things

"I'm scared." Looking up at the night sky, trying not to fall apart.

I felt him scoot closer to me.

"Scared of what?"

I hesitated for a moment.

" I... I'm scared of the thought that this might be the last time I'll be making coffee for my Dad, the last time I'll iron and fold his clothes. I'm scared of the thought of his heart breaking when I'm not here anymore.

I'm so scared that I feel like I won't be able to witness the sun shine again, that today might be my last day."

I said looking down at my shaking hands, suddenly ashamed of my revelation.

But his next words gave my heart a sense of something foreign...Hope.

" You're scared.

Isn't that enough reason to stay?"

-H.Asteid

" She's like a closed book hiding on the farthest part of a shelf, tightly hugging herself , Afraid that someone might ruin her pages again."

- H.Asteid, Ruined Pages

"Trust me on this. After a millisecond in the middle of the highway or free falling in midair or after kicking the chair or when your lungs are already filled with water, only then will you realize that death isn't what you wanted, that you just want to be genuinely happy again. But it would be too late. It would all be too late."

-H.Asteid

“You can, you should, and if you’re brave enough to start, you will.”

— Stephen King

" You gave me no other choice but to be strong."

-H.Asteid

" What made you so afraid of people getting too close?"

-H.Asteid

" And If I could only keep from death, I would."

-H.Asteid