OOF. Felt. I'm Barely Keeping It Hidden Over Here And It's Killing Me Inside

MY VERY REAL AND VERY EPIC TRANSITION TIMELINE!!!!! (It actually hurt drawing me with boobs even though it's what I look like irl)

[I.D - a meme in which OP is in a transition timeline image, but it's drawn and both images are exactly the same; he looks like a blonde blue eyed girl in both images. The timeline is from 2021 to 2024, and it says My Transition Timeline!!! on the top followed by (FT.... uhh wait what). On the bottom panel of the image there's Peter Griffin, who has a speech bubble in which he says "Hello! This is Peter here to explain the joke. Basically, OP hasn't changed appearances at all between 2021 and 2024. He's a FTM guy who cannot express himself, and this post is basically a cry for help hidden under layers of irony." End I.D]

(Also if someone could tell me how to improve my image descriptions that'd be great cuz I'm not great at making them)

Diary entry #13

I'm in a better mood so no cw today! This is mostly just a collection of random thoughts

Sometimes I look at all these people saying trans people are evil or whatever and I don't get it?? Like I don't really understand why people think that. Like grandmother I'm not going to hurt anyone I am literally just some guy.

You ever see some random motherfucker from the most weird series and decide "that man is my new gender envy source and also I want him." That's me, I fall into this trap literally every time I go into a new series/game or whatever. And it is always the weirdest ones too.

I watched a video on pvz lore, and now I'm like "goddammit I GUESS i'll read the comics now." Like they seem interesting and I need more lore so I'll get around to reading them... sometime. There's just so many issues and I procrastinate on even stuff I want to do.

I talked to my grandma about going to college in Illinois and she didn't like shut it down immediately so I'm hoping for the best.

I guess that's it?

A huge art page of me messing with my ManPepper design's expressions. What a charming, award winning smile. VuV

PLEASE READ!!!!!!!

Hi everyone, I never ask these kinds of things but,

I'm here to ask for your help. I'm a transgender individual who is struggling financially to purchase a binder. Wearing a binder will help me feel more comfortable in my own skin and alleviate some of my dysphoria. (Which has been at an all-time high recently)

As you may know, binders can be pricey, and I don't have the resources to purchase one on my own.(in fact I don't have any money at all, because I'm a minor, who doesn't have a job) If you are able and willing to help, I would be forever grateful. I'm humbly asking for a donation of at least $30, which would cover the cost of the binder and some transportation expenses.

Your support will make a world of difference for me, and I'm grateful for your kindness. If you have any questions, please DM me.

Thank you for considering my request.

(My cash app is in my bio, and tysm for listening)

This vid by Drew Gooden is incredibly informative and funny, and related to this. I recommend it

Also if you don't watch Drew Gooden watch him now he's awesome!!

i’m so sick of hearing people complain about “whiny transmascs who don’t transition and still want to be treated like men”

either pay for my top surgery or shut your mouth. some of us are disabled and have to find doctors willing to take the risk of a potentially deadly health crisis mid-surgery, on top of living paycheck to paycheck. do you have 13k, plus travel expenses for a week to the only surgeon i trust to not kill me? because i don’t.

Many such cases

(Based off a meme that I can't find anymore but like FTM edition)

[ID: a drawn meme featuring a transition timeline. The first picture is of a pre-transition trans man who has long-ish hair and dead green eyes. The caption above says "Saddest, most dead inside girl you've ever seen" and that same trans man much further along in his transition who has eyes with spark, is very muscular, and has short hair. The caption above him reads "Absolute giga-chad of a man. An actual statue of david in real life." /END ID]

What the fuck is wrong with people. Personally I believe this is how those transmed trans guys are made; by excluding them because they are men. Not excusing them, I'm just saying this is how they are formed.

Sometimes I worry about going down that path, but I have a firm belief in "do whatever you want forever." I am staunchly anti transmed; it just excludes people and is kinda dumb in ways I don't have time to get into.

I hope to pass as a man, I just want to be some guy basically. I plan on getting top and bottom surgery, and going on T probably for the rest of my life. But I refuse to become either a transmed or a person who excludes trans men who pass really well.

Sorry this was really a ramble, hope I made sense. OP i hope you're doing alright today.

tried to vent in a trans space about how, as a trans man who’s been on T for a long time (over 7 years now), i have noticed that the more i pass as a man, the less welcomed i am in queer spaces unless i go out of my way to feminize myself. and how that sucks! and it’s isolating!!! and it feels horrible to see ppl who used to like you and be close to you drift further and further the more masculine (& therefore more comfortable in urself) u become…

only to get ppl replying to me and saying “well if you dressed more fem then ppl wouldn’t be intimidated by you. you signed up for this”

i’m sorry but i didnt sign up for social isolation when i transitioned, i signed up for gender euphoria and comfort in myself and my life. and i had hoped that the ppl in my life would be able to see how much joy that brings me and continue to love me.

welcome reddit refugees

Writing a letter or a text is a good idea, but try to gauge their reactions to trans people before you do so. Try to be subtle, or see their reaction to trans news on the news. Remember: your safety comes first!

I know it’s really hard, but just try your best! Write a script if you need to.

Does anyone have tips on how to come out as trans ftm to ur parents I have n9 idea and am absolutely terrified