"Ramon, Kill This Mf"

Oathbound

chapter VI

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WHATWHATWHATWHAT HUHHHHHHHH!?!?!?!?

i wanna repost this from traffictwt because it's honestly something i've been thinking about a lot recently.

i've seen so many recent posts where people predict the results of wildlife, and even old ones from past series, and they always predict bigb going out close to first, never being a winner, never even being close to it. i don't understand why. or people excluding him from shipping, or blatantly ignoring his POVs...

i dunno. i just think it's odd. and also really sad - he's so fun to watch! these people miss out by being judgmental and prejudiced. but honestly, if that's why they're refusing to watch him, they don't deserve his top tier content anyway.

Oathbound chapter 5 spoilers

NATASHA!?!?? SELWYNS MOMMAAAAA!?!?!?

Pac character analysis

A very detailed and long Pac character analysis because he deserves it

(Also, sorry for the English mistakes, they will happen lol)

So, first things first. I'll focus on what happened yesterday, and especially on these two points:

Pac's conversation with Fit about Cell and the way he was feeling after it

Pac's change of mind regarding Cell at the conclusion of the stream

So, I find it fascinating that when Pac was telling Fit about his past with Cell, (besides talking about being pretty afraid), he mostly told him about the mistakes that he committed with Cell, not the opposite. He talked about leaving Cell alone on an island to die, but all he said about Cell's past behavior was that he was "different".

At first, I thought he just didn't want to discuss his trauma and wasn't ready for this conversation yet. I still think this is a part of the reason, but taking Pac's low self-esteem into consideration ... I think this is just one more of these moments where he thinks what happened to him isn't important enough. He really cares about Cellbit, so much so that his mind separates Cellbit and Cell as two different people. So much so that he doesn't want Fit to see Cellbit as a bad person. He thinks that saving Cellbit's reputation and helping him out are much more important than his fear and trauma will ever be.

And his reaction to Roier's plates just proves this. Intentionally or not, someone just broke a boundary of his, someone invaded a place that he built to be safe. And yet, his first thought is that he was in the wrong. He immediately felt bad, and besides still being afraid of Roier allowing Cellbit to enter, he just got rid of his boundary. He thought that Roier's feelings were more important than his fear. Instead of feeling bad because someone invaded his safe space, he felt bad for establishing a limit in the first place. (Obviously, CC Roier was just having some fun, lol).

Also, another interesting point: After Fit told Pac that he would protect him from Cell, Pac's first reaction was to wish that Cell actually hurt him, just to see Fit's reaction. It sounds kind of crazy, right? He's terrified of Cell, and yet he wants to be hurt just so he can be protected. I think this says A LOT about Pac.

He thinks he's so unimportant that the thought of someone caring so much about him —the thought of someone fighting for him— is so crazy, that he wants to actually see it. He wants to be hurt just to see someone worried about him. It's very clear that Mike was that person for Pac. Mike always protected him. Mike never cared if he had to do crazy things if that meant Pac was safe. He killed the federation guards, and he and Pac were this pair that fought together. They worked together, and Mike made Pac feel useful and important. But now, Mike is not here.  

And I think that in Pac's mind, this is something that shows how much you actually care for someone. Seeing Fit actually do that just proves that he cares about him. That he is important to someone.

Now, the second point:

After this conversation, (and Roier's plates), Pac says that he's not scared anymore. That Fit will protect him in case anything happens, and that he should help Cellbit. They are a family, and Roier reminded him of that. He should just let go of his fear and concentrate on helping Cellbit. (Sorry if there's something incorrect, that's just what I remember.)

I mean, this sounds nice and all, I saw a lot of people really happy about it, but ... I think it's actually pretty sad. This just shows how much Pac disregards his own well-being. He still thinks that there's a possibility that Cell will hurt him, but that's okay because at least someone will care. He still thinks he should help Cellbit in the first place, not because he has to fight his fear or because the past still haunts him. Still because, Cellbit, his family, is more important than anything he feels. His fear, his trauma, and his wish to be safe aren't more important than Cellbit.

He again puts himself in this self-sacrifice job. He should sacrifice his well-being for Cellbit; he should sacrifice his safety for forever; he should sacrifice his security for Roier. Because they are more important than him.

I think Pac helping Cellbit is good, but the way he is going about it isn't. He clearly needs to focus on himself now. He needs to put his health first, and Cellbit would absolutely respect that. Still, he just won't, because he thinks it's his job to sacrifice himself for others, and honestly, one day this will end badly. He won't be able to help Cellbit if he doesn't help himself first, and this won't happen so soon.

If he keeps doing this to himself, there will be consequences, maybe permanent ones. I mean, he literally just jumped on the nether, and we have no idea what he will find.

Although sounding heroic, everything about Pac right now is extremely worrying. It just keeps getting worse. And I have a terrible feeling about how all of this will affect him in the future.

Pac is one of the best fighters on the server, but his low self-esteem just keeps him from becoming anything other than the Guinea Pig. Especially now that Mike is gone. Maybe that's why staying with Fit is so comfortable for him. He doesn't need to sacrifice anything, which is similar to his relationship with Mike. They fight for each other, and that's it.

Anyway, that's it, I think. I hope I was able to express myself. English isn't my first language, so writing all that was pretty hard, kkkk. You are free to disagree, and discuss if you want <3

GOD i need to yap abt flames loyalty to mane bc i find it endlessly fascinating that he will put up w so much shit and do things he himself doesnt particularly like or believe in simply bc mane asks it of him. bc mane is his teammate, and flames sense of loyalty to him bc of that is possibly the closest thing LS has to a relationship w unconditional loyalty.

Spoilers for house of the dragons episode 10

Hotd episode 10 was leaked and most of us saw what happened to poor Luke. I find it really annoying how people are defending Aemond and this is coming from a person who likes Aemond (I’m team black tho don’t get it twisted) Stop defending this man. He chased after Luke on VHAGAR. Vhagar is in the first generation of Westeros dragons. The biggest Dragon in the show. I’m pretty sure Agon the conqueror used her in his conquest, so she’s a war veteran. Aemond chased Luke, what the fuck did he think was gonna happen? That he could mess with Luke a bit then fly off after? NO! I’m pretty sure dragons can feel their riders intent and Aemond doesn’t like Luke (for obvious reasons). Vhagar felt Aemond hated Luke and killed him.

Do I think it was an accident? OBVIOUSLY! I don’t think Aemond wanted to kill Luke just like how I don’t think he really wants this war. But his actions are a direct responsibility for the war starting. He shouldn’t have used Vhagar like she is some toy, Vhagar is a dragon! It’s like giving a child a gun and being surprised when someone gets killed. And I understand people are saying “he lost control of his dragon!” Okay? So did Luke, his dragon attacked back trying to protect him because his dragon was scared for Luke and his life! It doesn’t make what Aemond did right. Now because of his actions we are going to have to sit and watch the blood and cheese arc.

Oathbound chapter 1 spoilers

WILLIAMMMMMM YESSSS GODDDDDD

No one can convince me that Ross and Bucky fight over being the favorite colonizer nickname. I just feel it in my soul that they always try and on up each other to win at being the favorite colonizer.

Hazel is at camp half blood one summer for a slightly more extended stay than usual. Frank had been extra busy with praetor duties ever since Reyna left to join the Hunters. Hazel had been getting a little bored and it would be nice to see the Greek side of the 7 again.

While she’s staying, the hunters happen to come through. Hazel just wanted to catch up with Reyna but she ends up getting along with most of the hunters really well. She spends a decent amount of time with them while they’re at camp.

Nico seems to get fidgety and agitated the moment the hunters arrive at camp half blood. He speaks with Reyna briefly, but the hunters keep to themselves mostly, especially regarding male campers. But he seems even more apprehensive when he notices Hazel spending time with them. Hazel isn’t sure why until she walks into their cabin one night.

It’s completely dark but she can see Nico is awake, sitting upright on his bed but facing the corner. “Nico?” She questions softly. She runs her hand over the wall and eventually finds a light switch. Nico seems to cringe at the light and rests his head into the corner wall. As Hazel walks over Nico seems to draw more into himself. “Nico?” She repeats, this time placing her hand on his shoulder. Nico turns a bit but doesn’t face her. His head is still down and his hair covers more of his face. Hazel noticed now that his breathing is heavy and uneven. “Are you going with them” he asks in a low even whisper. The one Hazel knows he uses when he’s holding back. “I know you said you and Frank don’t get much time together anymore. You’ve been spending a lot of time with the Hunters.” Hazel was a little taken back for a moment. “I mean, I guess I have been but..” she trailed off for a moment, looking for the right words to explain but she didn’t get the chance, Nico cracked. Suddenly he choked out a sob. His hair fell back and Hazel could see for the first time that he’d been crying. “Please don’t go with them” he pleaded “I can’t- I just-“ his words caught in his throat. They had fought monsters and titans. She’s heard him talk about Tartarus and the bronze jar. But here, in their cabin, He looked more scared and desperate that she’d ever seen him. “I can’t- I can’t loose you to them” he managed, even though his sobs were becoming stronger and more frequent. “Hey, hey” Hazel shushed him and took both his hands “I’m not joining the hunters. I got along with some of the girls but that’s all, I’m not leaving camp Jupiter, I’m not leaving Frank and I’m not leaving you, Nico.” His hands were still shaking as she held them. He made a noise somewhere between a laugh and a sob. “Promise?” Hazel made an X motion over her heart. “Promise.”

Nico pulled Hazel into him and held her tightly. Hazel was a little surprised, but she’d gotten to know this soft side of her brother. “Besides” she said “You still have to be the flower boy at my wedding, right?”

I love watching Cellbits streams even if I don’t speak Portuguese(I’m learning tho) one thing I find hilarious about Cellbit streams is because of his music taste. It’s so similar to mine it’s actually funny. Cuz why are we listening to J Cole next song it’s Slipknot.