Monique Jacot. Los Palacios Y Villafranca, Andalusia, 1955

Chris Kirby, ''Curse of Babylon'', 1990

Zawsze wydawało mi się, że moje istnienie składa się wyłącznie i wyłącznie z niczego innego, jak tylko najbardziej oburzających bzdur. Odkąd pamiętam, każdy incydent i każdy impuls mojego istnienia służył jedynie do popełniania jednego epizodu po drugim jaskrawych bzdur, z których każdy był całkowicie oburzający w swojej bezsensowności. Rozpatrywana z dowolnego punktu widzenia — intymnie bliskiego, nieskończenie odległego lub jakiegokolwiek miejsca pomiędzy — cała ta sprawa zawsze wydawała się niczym więcej niż jakimś dziwacznym wypadkiem, który wydarzył się w boleśnie wolnym tempie. Czasami zapierał mi dech w piersiach nieskazitelny chaotyczność, absolutnie doskonały nonsens jakiegoś spektaklu rozgrywającego się poza mną lub, z drugiej strony, jakiś spektakl równie bezsensownej oburzalności rozgrywający się we mnie. W moim mózgu pojawiają się obrazy gęsto poskręcanych kształtów i linii. Bazgroły psychicznie chorego epileptyka, często mówiłem sobie.

It has always seemed to me that my existence consisted purely and exclusively of nothing but the most outrageous nonsense. As long as I can remember, every incident and every impulse of my existence has served only to perpetrate one episode after another of conspicuous nonsense, each completely outrageous in its nonsensicality. Considered from whatever point of view—intimately close, infinitely remote, or any position in between—the whole thing has always seemed to be nothing more than some freak accident occurring at a painfully slow rate of speed. At times I have been rendered breathless by the impeccable chaoticism, the absolutely perfect nonsense of some spectacle taking place outside myself, or, on the other hand, some spectacle of equally senseless outrageousness taking place within me. Images of densely twisted shapes and lines arise in my brain. Scribbles of a mentally deranged epileptic, I have often said to myself.

Thomas Ligotti, "The Clown Puppet", Teatro Grottesco

Santiago Caruso (Argentine, b. 1982, Quilmes, Buenos Aires, Argentina) - Flood of Justice, 2020, Paintings: Oil on Paper

Picture painted by Zdzisław Beksiński, 1979

Astrology observations

What your 12th house sign awakens in you at night

🤼‍♀️ Aries in the 12th House - May experience random surges of adrenaline at night, Restless & impulsive may struggle to fall asleep due to excess energy.Replays conflicts or arguments in their head, thinking about what they should have said. Secretly feels alone in their struggles but won’t admit it.

🧘🏻‍♀️ Taurus in the 12th house - Overly sensitive to their surroundings at night needs a comfortable space to relax.May turn to food, music, or sensory comforts to cope with hidden stress. Suppresses emotions during the day but feels them more deeply at night. You might long for a private escape with a lover, a sensual connection that is both grounding and intoxicating.

🗣️ Gemini in the 12th house - Mind won’t shut off races with thoughts, ideas, or random facts.May talk to themselves internally, replaying conversations or social interactions.Feels mentally restless and struggles with sleep.Often reads, watches, or listens to something before bed to keep their brain occupied.Dreams are random, fast-paced, or full of conversations with people.

👩‍🍼cancer in the 12th house - Feels extra sentimental at night, even about things that seem minor during the day.May replay childhood memories or past hurts before bed.Craves comfort and security may need to be near loved ones to sleep peacefully.Absorbs other people’s emotions, making it hard to fully relax.

🦁 Leo in the 12th house - Hides insecurities during the day but faces them at night. Might suddenly worry about how they are perceived.Craves validation or attention in a subconscious way but won’t admit it.Night can bring creative inspiration, but also dramatic emotional waves.Feels lonely or unappreciated if they don’t receive affection.

🧝‍♀️Virgo in the 12th house -Replays past mistakes or things they should have done differently.Analyses everything before bed, leading to racing thoughts.Feels responsible for things even when alone.May struggle with tension, headaches, or digestive issues at night.

🧑‍⚖️ Libra in the 12th house - Thinks deeply about relationships and love at night.Secretly insecure about being liked or accepted.Feels unbalanced in solitude, sometimes needing background noise.Worries about past relationships or unresolved issues.

🥷Scorpio in the 12th house - Deep emotions come out at night feels more than they show during the day. May obsess over something or someone privately.Feels more possessive or jealous at night but keeps it hidden. Struggles with letting go of emotions and thoughts before sleeping.

🧑‍✈️Sagittarius in the 12th house - Mentally restless at night, thinking about big-picture ideas.Feels trapped in routine and dreams of escaping. Can’t sleep until their mind is satisfied might read, write, or talk to someone late at night.

🧑‍💻 Capricorn in the 12th house - Feels responsibilities weigh on them at night could stress about work, finances, or the future.May feel secretly isolated, believing they must handle things alone.Doesn’t fully let go emotionally, even in sleep. Subconsciously fears failure, losing status, or being powerless.

🧟‍♂️ Aquarius in the 12th house - Feels emotionally distant at night, even if surrounded by people.Processes emotions through logic, making it hard to connect with deeper feelings.Could have sudden bursts of creativity or strange dreams.Loves solitude but may also feel misunderstood.

🧜‍♀️ Pisces in the 12th house - Night is a time of spiritual retreat may feel drawn to music, fantasy, or dreams.Could have prophetic or surreal dreams.Easily influenced by their environment if the energy around them is negative, they absorb it.Feels deeply connected to something greater, even if they don’t know what it is.

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