My Part Of @shlzine 💞✨💖🌟

i honestly feel like my ~ whatever that is going on in my brain ~ (anxiety? adhd? autism? all? who knows!) blends so much with my aroaceness that i can't separate one from another. i don't understand love at first sight the way people do— that “i knew it was you from the first moment i saw you”, i don't understand one night stands because wdym you can trust your body to someone you just met after a couple of drinks? i don't understand why love fades the same way it appeared, out of nowhere. i don't understand how you can actually feel horny or heavily attracted to someone you saw on the streets, like wdym you saw a cute girl and got a boner? how does that work? (i am aware i am exaggerating with this one lol) (at least i hope so) i don't understand how you can simply Not Care about your lover's feelings and cheat on them, why don't you tell them “nah i am not interested anymore”? why is it okay to lie for a long time to avoid hurting them (and ending up causing more pain) instead of inflicting less pain sooner?

i don't understand the way most people “love”, the way they handle “romantic” relationships, i don't get the difference between marriage and dating, i don't understand a handful of things and i don't know if it's because my brain tends to think way too literally when it needs the heart or it's because love doesn't blind me and make me do dumb things.

being aroace is kinda a headache sometimes, i guess.

yanyan my beloved

One character I loved in Arcane besides Jinx/Powder is Silco. He is a flawed character that isn’t good or evil but a complex grey character. Two things I best see it in is his relationship with Jinx/Powder and Zaun. While their relationship was somewhat toxic their care for each other was genuine. But their relationship was toxic nonetheless with Silco seeing Jinx as a younger him and pushing his trauma onto her. He enabled and manipulated her violent and unstable behaviors instead of helping her which is understandable considering he himself never healed from his trauma. Because Silco saw Jinx as a younger him he pushed what he needed onto Jinx not thinking that they were 2 different people in different but somewhat similar situations. With Zaun he does care for it because he grew up in it and wants better for but he pumps shimmer into it poisoning the people creating deformed addicts to bring him money. But after all of the years work and blood he put into Zaun’s independence he was willing to give it up for Jinx. Even after Jinx shot him and gave him a fatal wound he comforted her saying he wouldn’t give her up for anything and called her perfect even with her mental instability and violent tendencies. Their affection with each other was uncomfortable for people watching because of their trauma and Jinx still thinking like a little girl wanting affection from who she thought of as a father with no sense of boundaries. Silco did come to genuinely love Jinx like a daughter but he was still a bad father to her with the only reason why Silco spared Jinx is because he saw she could be of use to him and again he saw himself in her. He saw weapon he could groom to help him get Zaun’s independence that he later come to love.

Jiangzuo Alliance (sort of) Leverage AU?

For my @nif-exchange recipient, @star-shadows, who prompted “The brotherhood of the Jiangzuo Alliance”. Sadly I’m not good with words/art/ideas so I just made… this. I hope someone else fills your prompts because I’m also into them!

This is mostly animated because I can’t actually draw anything more complicated than basic shapes and wanted to distract people from looking too closely at the details. I also had to come up with increasingly contrived ways to cover up the hands, because hands.

Art references:

MCS & Li Gang

Gong Yu

Tong Lu

Zhen Ping

AO3 link if images don’t load (@ tumblr why): http://archiveofourown.org/works/12822456/

Guess what we're watching.

two sides of the same coin

She’s afraid of being considered a monster, and acts chaotic and spunky but is actually extremely vulnerable.

When her fear takes over, she wants to destroy the monster.

She’s afraid of ever encountering a monster, and acts stoic and calm but is actually extremely vulnerable and unstable.

When her fear takes over, she wants to destroy the monster.

They’re actually more similar than we give them credit for.

I’m convinced if ppl on this site knew how crappy gifs look before you color them properly, they would appreciate editors more

"I'm sorry. Did I come too late?"

“if you can’t brush your teeth that’s fine uwu one step at a time” posts are supportive and that’s great but I’m about to have a 4.4k$ dental bill because I wasn’t taking care of my teeth when I was super depressed so uhh brush your fuckin teeth