Academia Friendship Clique

you made me feel like i was not enough

like i always need to pretend to be someone else

someone you wanted me to be

someone you would like to be friends with

even if you didn’t you it on purpose , this stayed with me till now

i will never walk through the valley of my personality without looking back, on this shadow. Scar that you left on my heart. Fear that’s going to follow me into the darkest days, just to give me opportunity to arise

from hellfire i walked through again

Some REAL Dark Academia things:

Working real hard to actually excel at academics, because you realize that reading The Secret History or The Picture Of Dorian Gray once doesn't make you an academic.

Treating everyone, specially unfortunate people with kindness, because acting like an aloof douche doesn't give you Cool Points.

Holding yourself with dignity, instead of begging other people for scraps of attention and validation. No, really. Stop trying to act like a misunderstood serial killer, Susan, it's embarrassing.

Not falling into the traps of elitist racism, casual misogyny or anti-semitism, because you try to be intelligent and introspective, instead of following in the gross footsteps of some shitty, white eighteenth century writer.

Not having a superiority complex over the fact that you don't listen to pop music, because you are smart enough to respect art of all kinds, or at the very least, respect the fact that people are inherently different.

Okay now the fun stuff:

Short red nails

Reading to expand your mind

Flowy dresses or leather jackets or pajamas, because Dark Academia can be DIVERSE, babeyyyyy

Fluffy fat cats named Oscar

Toasting to Aphrodite and Persephone

Healthy friendships and relationships, because we need to STOP romanticising toxicity.

Handwritten birthday cards with pressed flowers

BLUEBERRIES

Lana Del Rey and One Direction. Hozier and Dua Lipa. The Shins and Nirvana. Harry Styles and Louis Tomlinson. Sam Fender and Coldplay. Taylor Swift and The Velvet Underground. Lorde and Florence. 5SOS and The Beatles. Zayn and Rihanna. Seriously, listen to whoever the fuck you want to listen to. Dark Academia is NOT a music genre. Listen to everything. To define is to limit.

Dancing at midnight

Fairy tales and horror stories

Falling in love

Only red lipstick on an otherwise bare face

Celebrating the birthdays and deathdays of your favourite authors and poets

Quoting Oscar Wilde to your houseplant

Ivory coloured notebooks

Watching Kill Your Darlings and Yearning

Watching Gone Girl and Yearning

Rock music in the shower

Constellations tattooed over your body, because you contain the entire universe in you babey

Doctoral programs and scholarships

Talking to stray animals like they're your old friends

Lying in the grass on a sunny day

Learning languages at your own pace, because you got nothing to prove to nobody

Studying to learn

Trying your hardest to live your life for YOU

Being who YOU want to be

Pushing yourself through dark times, because you try so hard to believe in yourself

Healthy sleep schedules, except the occasional all nighter to indulge your inner vampire

Happiness

Melancholy

Hope, and the desire to live forever

Stare. Dead stare. It didn’t have an ending nor did he remember when it all began. Flames were reflecting in those dark iris of Anthony’s eyes, didn’t represent what he felt at all. Colors were dancing all across the room, while some gray bag of blood didn’t even move for the celebration of once again rising sun. His legs were shaking, so he finally stood up to close the window, just to realize it wasn’t cold that made him freeze. Ironic isn’t it,he thought, everything in this room reminded him of warmth of happiness that he might never feel again. In flame he saw escape, in flame he found ease. Desire to run didn’t leave him for a second, but he couldn’t even breathe properly, or maybe it was just а dirt on long-time abandoned carpet. Dust was flying all across the room just like Anthony’s memories did. Both turned his eyes red. It wasn’t the end of everything, maybe. But one thing was for sure ending, and it was his freedom, once and for all.

five things that made me fall in love with you. or maybe even more...

this awkward joke, my favorite first awkward joke. it was so strange, but it was the first time you made me feel special, even in this strange and sarcastic way

our friendship. it was so warm, so familiar, so close. just like rainy summer day when something is not supposed to be happening, but still happens, yet feels really really good, our friendship was the most interesting interaction with anyone in this world

trust. it is not even the fact that i can tell you anything as much as the fact that i really want to. Or maybe it is a mixture of both that makes me feel so secure with you

mutuality that never in my life i felt so much, before you. those meaningless fights on who loves more are fun, but honestly i feel like we both give out full 100% into this relationships which makes me extremely grateful.

it feels like it was yesterday. first time i realized that i’m falling for you, first kiss, first i love you, first time that i saw you in my future. It is just doesn’t feel like burden, and i don’t feel like it ever will. It is so easy to be with you, because it just feels right. there are challenges and struggles, but i don’t feel like they matter at all. nothing ever makes me feel like giving up, because whatever it is, just having you in my life is so god damn worth it.

you are not like other people. you look at things in this different but also interesting way that always made me wonder and made me want to explore them. I can’t get tired talking to you, because even though we are same, yet manage to be so different. I know everything i need to know about you, while actually i don’t know anything at all, because you are too much to explore, and i’m willing to test my luck until our last talk.

Girls love each other like animals. There is something ferocious and unself-conscious about it. We don't guard ourselves like we do with boys. No one trains us to shield our hearts from each other. With girls, it's total vulnerability from the beginning. Our skin is bare and soft. We love with claws and teeth and the blood is just proof of how much. It's feral.

And it's relentless.

Leah Raeder, Black Iris

Chakras & Crystals

Crown - Selenite, Crystal Quartz, Moonstone, Fluorite, Amethyst

Third Eye - Lapis Lazuli, Iolite, Sapphire, Sodalite

Throat - Agate, Angelite, Turquoise, Amazonite, Hawk Eye

Heart - Rose Quartz, Aventurine, Malachite, Unakite

Solar Plexus - Citrine, Tiger’s Eye, Amber, Yellow Calcite, Topaz

Sacral - Carnelian, Peach Moonstone, Orange Aventurine, Orange Calcite

Root - Red Jasper, Obsidian, Red Tiger’s Eye, Tourmaline

Signs a Spirit Has Visited Your Dream

Whatever you were dreaming about previously comes to an abrupt stop, and a change in vibrational frequency occurs after the spirit appears.

The dream becomes more lucid, and you are able to act consciously and communicate effectively with the spirit. 

Your sensory perceptions become clearer.

The dream’s scenery reverts back to your room, and you see the spirit inside your room or beside your bed.

After the spirit has given you an important message, you wake up between 3-4 AM. 

You will instantly be able to recognise the spirit, often telepathically hearing it’s name.

Upon waking up, you are able to recount the dream in great detail.

The dream is accompanied by the spirit’s symbolism, especially if it is a deity.

You meet the spirit through a door or gateway - the astral threshold. 

Depending on what kind of spirit has visited you, you may wake up feeling drained and with a headache.

7 Comfort Films

I was tagged by @academicsuggestions

Mamma Mia! (And Mamma Mia 2)

The Princess Diaries

Moonrise Kingdom

Clueless

Scream

Legally Blonde

All Harry Potter films

I tag @theladyvampira @darkacademaniac @dark-academiia and anyone else who wants to participate 🖤

Women In History

I grew up believing that women had contributed nothing to the world until the 1960′s. So once I became a feminist I started collecting information on women in history, and here’s my collection so far, in no particular order. 

Lepa Svetozara Radić (1925–1943) was a partisan executed at the age of 17 for shooting at German soldiers during WW2. As her captors tied the noose around her neck, they offered her a way out of the gallows by revealing her comrades and leaders identities. She responded that she was not a traitor to her people and they would reveal themselves when they avenged her death. She was the youngest winner of the Order of the People’s Hero of Yugoslavia, awarded in 1951

23 year old Phyllis Latour Doyle was British spy who parachuted into occupied Normandy in 1944 on a reconnaissance mission in preparation for D-day. She relayed 135 secret messages before France was finally liberated. 

Catherine Leroy, War Photographer starting with the Vietnam war. She was taken a prisoner of war. When released she continued to be a war photographer until her death in 2006.

Lieutenant Pavlichenko was a Ukrainian sniper in WWII, with a total of 309 kills, including 36 enemy snipers. After being wounded, she toured the US to promote friendship between the two countries, and was called ‘fat’ by one of her interviewers, which she found rather amusing. 

Johanna Hannie “Jannetje” Schaft was born in Haarlem. She studied in Amsterdam had many Jewish friends. During WWII she aided many people who were hiding from the Germans and began working in resistance movements. She helped to assassinate two nazis. She was later captured and executed. Her last words were “I shoot better than you.”. 

Nancy wake was a resistance spy in WWII, and was so hated by the Germans that at one point she was their most wanted person with a price of 5 million francs on her head. During one of her missions, while parachuting into occupied France, her parachute became tangled in a tree. A french agent commented that he wished that all trees would bear such beautiful fruit, to which she replied “Don’t give me any of that French shit!”, and later that evening she killed a German sentry with her bare hands. 

After her husband was killed in WWII, Violette Szabo began working for the resistance. In her work, she helped to sabotage a railroad and passed along secret information. She was captured and executed at a concentration camp at age 23. 

Grace Hopper was a computer scientist who invented the first ever compiler. Her invention makes every single computer program you use possible. 

Mona Louise Parsons was a member of an informal resistance group in the Netherlands during WWII. After her resistance network was infiltrated, she was captured and was the first Canadian woman to be imprisoned by the Nazis. She was originally sentenced to death by firing squad, but the sentence was lowered to hard lard labor in a prison camp. She escaped. 

Simone Segouin was a Parisian rebel who killed an unknown number of Germans and captured 25 with the aid of her submachine gun. She was present at the liberation of Paris and was later awarded the ‘croix de guerre’. 

Mary Edwards Walker is the only woman to have ever won an American Medal of Honor. She earned it for her work as a surgeon during the Civil War. It was revoked in 1917, but she wore it until hear death two years later. It was restored posthumously. 

Italian neuroscientist won a Nobel Prize for her discovery of nerve growth factor. She died aged 103. 

EDIT

jinxedinks added: Her name was Rita Levi-Montalcini. She was jewish, and so from 1938 until the end of the fascist regime in Italy she was forbidden from working at university. She set up a makeshift lab in her bedroom and continued with her research throughout the war.  

A snapshot of the women of color in the woman’s army corps on Staten Island

This is an ongoing project of mine, and I’ll update this as much as I can (It’s not all WWII stuff, I’ve got separate folders for separate achievements). 

File this under: The History I Wish I’d Been Taught As A Little Girl

That’s my problem: I think too much and I feel too deeply. What a dangerous combination