I Have To Read This One

here’s a list of my favourite playlists that i listen to when studying. only one playlist has lyrics so if you find that distracting you can skip it!

1 am study session - lofi hip hop/chill beats (1 hour)

a rainy town - animal crossing ost + thunderstorm ambiance (1 hour)

breath of the wild relaxing music with rain (1 hour)

lofi hip hop radio - beats to relax/study to (live radio)

relaxing life is strange music (1 hour) *has lyrics

relaxing music from uncharted series (45 mins)

skyrim music & ambiance - night (1 hour)

skyrim music & ambiance - rainy day (10 hours)

studio ghibli summer night piano collection with nature sounds (7 hours)

the last of us - relaxing music compilation (30 mins)

the legend of zelda - calming & relaxing music compilation (1 hour)

the witcher 3 - peaceful music & nature ambiance (1 hour)

the witcher 3 toussaint - relaxing music for sleep and study (1 hour)

uncharted - ambient music & ambience (1 hour)

all playlists

Musical vibes

Jack Stauber’s full albums: Night drive music or abstract tunes that make you feel like you’re floating. Jack Stauber’s unextended Micropop songs: Vaguely familiar childhood memory. Jack Stauber’s extended Micropop songs: A combination of the previous two. Lemon Demon: If you took the general feel of the songs from Phineas and Ferb and then made it mad scientist rock perfect for listening to while violating the laws of nature. I DON’T KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME: A demon of the arts tormenting an immoral and backstabbing rock star for his hubris. The Oh Hellos: You ate a plant that looked pretty and now suddenly you’re in golden fields in a high fantasy world as two extradimensional bards narrate your tales. Cosmo Sheldrake: You ate a plant that looked pretty and ended up in a dreamland where a spirit is guiding you without explicit care for your safety and only a focus on making sure you follow the letter of the land’s laws. Superorganism: I have no clue how it happened but liquid got turned into music and I’m not complaining. Porter Robinson(in Worlds and past it): Someone assembled a bunch of corrupted files of human memories back into an understandable form as songs. (Madeon but less happy) Madeon: The sun and fast moving winds. Like if high fantasy was modernized to the 21st century. (Porter Robinson but less sad) Miracle Musical: Fell into a box of old film reels and now you’re in a nightmare that you aren’t scared of, until you reach The Mind Electric and you are absolutely 100% horrified. Lemaitre: If Porter Robinson made pop and was more than one person. (also tfw you’re a band from norway with a french name and song lyrics in english. mr. worldwide) Half Alive: AJR but orange and less memory based. AJR: Half Alive but brown and less abstract. Caravan Palace prior to Chronologic: The mafia is pissed at you(or you ARE the mafia?) and nobody speaks in full sentences. Caravan Palace after Chronologic: Somebody dipped my electro swing band in a new coat of paint. Cavetown: Not everybody has a guitar and experience with writing good lyrics so somebody’s gotta be the one to say what everybody wants to communicate if only they could make music. Glass Animals in ZABA: Forest spirit teaches you about the wilderness until you piss him off bigtime and and he chases you out. Glass Animals in How To Be A Human Being: Who gave the forest spirit access to the personal lives of several troubled people and WHO GAVE HIM THE RIGHT TO BE SO ON-POINT WITH HIS TAKES ON THEM???

content of my posts

Health and Lifestyle 

A Morning Routine

Why Making Mistakes Is Important in Life

The Feeling of Grief (COVID 19)

Break the Habit of Procrastinating

Amazing Short Stretch

Stay Health & Active

30-day Journal Prompt

A Mini Guide to Dalgona Coffee

Things to Do When Bored

How to Stay Focused

Coping With Stress and Anxiety

Wake Up Without Feeling Tired

Random Acts of Kindness

A Guide to Sleep for Students

A Guide to Digital Minimalism

Books to Educate Yourself about Racism

Academics

How to Beat Exam Stress

A Guide to Review for Exam

Stress Detox for Online Learning

Tips for Learning from Home (COVID 19)

How to Study When Sick

Reduce Test Anxiety

School Hacks

Studying Snacks

Time Management for Students

Common Studying Mistakes

How to Do Revision

Classic Books to Read

How to Achieve Study Goals

Organize Your Study Space

Avoid and Deal With Study Burn Out

Getting Stuff Done

Improving Your Grade

Websites for SAT

How to Take Better Notes

Vocabulary for Learning a Language

Aesthetic & Creativity

Mini Guide to Graphic Design

Choose Your Academia

Things to Include in Bujo

Themes for Bullet Journal

Technology

Top 6 Apps that I Love

Why Listen to Podcast + My favs

Favorite Studying Tracks

Current Studying and Chilling Playlist

Wallpaper

May Wallpaper 2020

June Wallpaper 2020

this is going to be my check list :)

Hello do you know any dark academia movies or TV shows that I can find on Netflix?

* DISCLAIMER: this is based off of my personal loose definition of DA. Some of you may disagree with me on these qualifying but I believe they mostly fit. Also, the movies listed are horror movies. If you have any sensitivity to horror, google the movie before watching it. I know there are more DA shows and movies out there, this post contains Netflix DA content only.

DA Shows on Netflix:

The Magicians- magical university with dark themes! Takes awhile to get over the writing but the gist is pretty good

The End of the F*cking World- School setting and a shit ton of misfortune. Also funny and captivating

Dear White People - university with secret societies! Bonus points for diversity plus this is funny af 10/10

A Series of Unfortunate events - you prob know this from your childhood, one of the OG examples of DA I think. Dark shit and (sometimes) a school setting

Derry Girls- Irish school in the 90’s! Deals with the Irish conflict so semi- dark themes, this one is also hilarious and one of my favorite shows ever

Skins- (kind of DA) dark themes + teens. Earliest seasons are best

The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina- Satan worshipping witches! A witch school! Murder! Corruption! Can be very dark, writing also takes a while to get over, but if you watch long enough you’ll love it

How to Get Away with Murder- the title says it all. (This show also helped get me into DA)

DA Movies on Netflix:

A Nightmare on Elm Street- ik this is barely dark academia but it has a school setting and dark themes BC murder, also vintage v cool

The Scream franchise - teens in school + a murderer. Also vintage and great

Silence of the Lambs- (I know this is barely, again I have a loose definition of DA) main character is in the FBI academy + a murderer. Also vintage

tag yourself: school subjects

english: cozy borrowed hoodies, rustling papers, “i can’t read”, thermos filled with tea, illegible notes in the margins, sleeping with shakespeare covering your face, daily journaling, doodling through lectures

math: shaky hands during tests, the familiar feel of a calculator in your palm, dead silence when you work, flipping through the textbook, easing through problem sets, swapping pens for pencils, wistfully looks out the window

history: summaries of bills and acts on chart paper, the scratch of sharpies, eternal group projects, granola bars hidden under desks, hand cramps from writing, squinting at the board, being told off for talking to your friends

art: paint stained jeans, braiding your friends’ hair, lightning-quick gesture drawings, rivers of sunlight in the classroom, headphones in, snacks strewn around you, snapping charcoal (accidentally!!), wet clay on your fingers

foreign languages: hours of conjugating charts, subtitled films, loopy gel pens, mumbled presentations, repeated listening exercises, forgetting vocabulary immediately, the sound of someone writing with chalk, late breakfasts

gym/health: rewatching mean girls for the 100th time, iced coffee, morning runs under the gentle sun, oversized t-shirts, squeaky floors under sneakers, gossip on the bleachers, avoiding the school pool, rolling up your shorts

science: high ponytails, rapid memorization that fades after the test, frowning while you work, old classroom TVs with dated science programs, whispers and giggles between powerpoint slides, searching for not-gross lab goggles (and not finding them)

I can never find the right words to tell people what I’m thinking. Telling them I’m tired doesn’t work, but I can’t seem to vocalize that I’m mentally exhausted and sick of existing. Telling them I’m sad doesn’t work either, but I can’t explain that I’m struggling not to kill myself and that the joy in everything in my life is gone and when I wake up to the sun in my eyes, I have to struggle to get myself out of bed because most of me didn’t even want to wake up at all. I can’t tell them I’m numb because what I’m feeling is so much more complex than numb and I don’t have the vocabulary to tell them that I feel like I’m drowning and it terrifies me that I feel nothing as it’s happening, and that my insides want to scream but I can’t even find it in me to shed a tear anymore, that every single aspect of my life feels like it’s shaded in grey because someone sucked out all the colors but I can hardly even remember what colors are because I can no longer remember a time I didn’t feel like this. No, I don’t know how to say that. So I just whisper “I’m fine.”

when i’m about to be happy

you destroy me in pieces

intensions are different,

in tension you leave me

no pain turns my mind into hate

my love is more than i can break

give me peace in this mess that you’ve build

stay, and i will give you more than you ever did.

monolithic love that i’m telling about in my monologue,

it is story for two

and i wasn’t even a drop

in your pool.

The golden gloam we can't beg to stay 

Petals are bleeding into the dirt 

Now we watch darkness swallow day

The reaper returns, a price we must pay

Writhing, wizened, woozy with hurt 

The golden gloam we can't beg to stay

Tongues shredded by what we can't say

Moonlight and tears, goodbyes so curt

Now we watch darkness swallow day

Though we'd rebel we must still obey

Our ghosts are sleeping now, inert

The golden gloam we can't beg to stay 

We all have our parts that we must play

Hope is fickle and prone to desert

Now we watch darkness swallow day

The anguish wrapped tight with dismay--

We save the confessions we'd like to blurt

The golden gloam we can't beg to stay

Now we watch darkness swallow day

Real Talk.

I’m broken and I can’t be fixed...