Ad Astra Abyssosque

Leila Chatti, “Tea”

i’m tired, can’t think of anything and want only to lay my face in your lap, feel your hand on my head and remain like that through all eternity.

Rune lazuli

it felt like you threw me

so far from myself

i've been trying to find my way back ever since

-rupi kaur

I reach for you even when you’re not there.

drowning in thoughts

but words full of desert

why am i cold

but burning away?

i dont want to talk,

leave me,

let silence be my voice,

silence,

the silence i embraced and hold on to when you ignored me

The purest form of love is consideration. When someone thinks about how things would make you feel. Pays attention to detail. Holds you in regard when making decisions that could affect you. In any bond, how much they care about you can be found in how much they consider you

[Except for your eyes, / no blade can control me, / no sharpened knife.]

Vladimir Mayakovsky, Lilichka

Why does my mind travel back to that moment on the bench so much?

When i keep telling everyone and myself that i do not miss you?

Why does my mind wander everytime back to you?

Why is it that i compare everyone that comes close to me with you?

Tell me...

I would ask you if i could, but i can't