Funny thing about text.
I have been extremely sick this past week (like, all the water in my body has decided to leave in the least fun ways it knows how.) And this has made me tired, like, really tied, bordering on delirious. My job barely noticed but the way I text to my friends has immediately set off alarms apparently???
Normally I write very formal, just extremely dryly, all punctuation, proper Grammer, all that shit. But when I am really tired or cannot allocate any extra energy to typing I type like I talk and boy does it show. Weirder still, I start using word adjacent phonetics, like texting someone "yeyeyea Igoddit" is not my normal MO.
I do genuinely wonder if other people have this sort of discrepancy when they're really sick or something.
autism disphoria, where you're having such good fun at an event but when you see picture of yourself you were just :| the whole damn fucking time (as illustrated below)
sonic, tails and sage have a minecraft server. it's mostly the three of them but some other friends get invited onto it on occasion. at it's core it's honestly just tails and sage being huge mc nerds and building complicated redstone shit, mob farms, and other huge shit and sonic is mostly there because his presence is the only way to get tails and sage to interact at all
Weird post, nobody asked, but I think I just... Do Not pay attention to the appearances of others. I'm very keen on noticing clothing and habits but not, like, the stuff that doesn't change. My friends inform me that I am approaching 'Dave with a haircut?' levels of oblivious.
So, apparently, I have been wrong about the ethnicities of most of my friends. It doesn't matter, but it feels weird to not have had that data already, when I've been friends with them for half a damn decade, and I've met their parents. Just sort of inexcusable to not notice.
On top of this, something I have known is that I am a bad judge of at-a-glance gender presentation detection. I have asked people their gender for years, to the point I don't even think about it not being a typical question where I live.
And not only am I bad, I'm like, fuckin horrible. Part of why I acclimated to fast to the concept of gender identity when I was young was being genuinely unable to determine any feminine or masculine traits from any person with hair. Asking was so easy. So clear cut. Still is. Maybe this is some kinda Neuro-nontypicality, but I ain't no governmence scientician.
I think this might be a side effect of being my specific brand of aroace, but I have a hard time thinking of someone as handsome or beautiful, and kinda just feel nothing about the normally heavily scrutinized features most people attribute to attractiveness.
Maybe synergizing my Class Passive [Aroace disinterest] with my [Poor Memory] debuff has resulted in the Trait [Retroactive Face Blindness] being applied to me.
The name of this blog might be confusing to some, I realize.
For context, I am asexual and aromantic. For those that care, I'm mixed to sensuality, but platonic touch is nice.
I'm genuinely unsure why, but while the idea of having sex, watching sex, or otherwise engaging with sex personally makes me something between nauseous-due-to-anxiety and digusted, I have no such hangups about writing or art containing it. I find it to be a very interesting way for characters to express themselves conceptually, and even find a not insignificant amount of -uh- personal gratification from it. Not sure if that counts as sex repulsed, I'm no expert, but at the very least I know I have libido.
Part of this blog is me trying to figure out how that, and a few other pieces, fit into the puzzle of who I am. If you're Asexual or know a lot about it and think you have good input, I invite it.
Plus, I love this stuff a lot as an art form, and I think I'm tired of wishing I could talk about my thoughts on it. So, I'm gonna post it instead, follow for more DnD content and Art I reblog and porn game/webnovel reviews I make if you want, I guess??
It’s okay to not want to have sex ever. It’s okay to never even try it.
all snuggled up for the cold
for @/mrgumtwo on twitter!
I think the biggest sign of the grand “fall of Bethesda” or whatever is the fact that Starfield officially released a full calendar month ago today and I literally have zero idea what it is about or what happens in it. absolutely zero cultural osmosis seems to have happened, which would’ve been unthinkable for a Bethesda RPG like ten years ago
A blog for me to shitpost and expose my deepest secrets. Jason Fakename, He/Him, mid 20's
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