Itโs okay to not want to have sex ever. Itโs okay to never even try it.
Y'know, I don't think I appreciate my folks enough. I have never had an S/O and, unless some of that fluidity hits me in the next few years, prolly will not ever. And it occured to me about a week ago, that not once have I been asked?
Like, there was teasing, obviously, but other than a few confused bites at the apple I had when I was real small, I never brought home news of the warfront and they didn't ask.
To be fair, should they have been more involved, probably, but in terms of identity, it's weird to tell someone 'thanks for never giving a shit enough to hound me about something outside of my control.'
When I told my father how I was grateful, he said "...do you want me to ask?" Because parents totally listen like normal people, but hey, he's trying.
I feel like if I were getting hounded to get out there and find someone, I'd have gotten into a lot of bad relationships and would be much the worse for wear. Sometimes treating someone as normal is support, y'know?
There's something so inherently vulnerable about dentist's offices, even beyond the hands in your mouth. It's the turning of your head before they tell you to, the forcible relaxing of an involuntary tensing up, opening yourself wider and feeling ashamed that they even had to ask you.
Like, I am not, by any stretch in my daily life, a bottom. But at a dentist's office or hair salon, I become so willing to do things for another person, bordering on the sublime desire. I think this is what submissives experience in every interaction.
Zeph ๐โ ๏ธ [ character sold ]
Weird post, nobody asked, but I think I just... Do Not pay attention to the appearances of others. I'm very keen on noticing clothing and habits but not, like, the stuff that doesn't change. My friends inform me that I am approaching 'Dave with a haircut?' levels of oblivious.
So, apparently, I have been wrong about the ethnicities of most of my friends. It doesn't matter, but it feels weird to not have had that data already, when I've been friends with them for half a damn decade, and I've met their parents. Just sort of inexcusable to not notice.
On top of this, something I have known is that I am a bad judge of at-a-glance gender presentation detection. I have asked people their gender for years, to the point I don't even think about it not being a typical question where I live.
And not only am I bad, I'm like, fuckin horrible. Part of why I acclimated to fast to the concept of gender identity when I was young was being genuinely unable to determine any feminine or masculine traits from any person with hair. Asking was so easy. So clear cut. Still is. Maybe this is some kinda Neuro-nontypicality, but I ain't no governmence scientician.
I think this might be a side effect of being my specific brand of aroace, but I have a hard time thinking of someone as handsome or beautiful, and kinda just feel nothing about the normally heavily scrutinized features most people attribute to attractiveness.
Maybe synergizing my Class Passive [Aroace disinterest] with my [Poor Memory] debuff has resulted in the Trait [Retroactive Face Blindness] being applied to me.
Hey I know you're working on pumping out a bunch of videos rn and we're all super excited but please take care of yourself salt man, you're our favorite white boy and we want you to be okay ๐
Thank you for the reminder dude. Iโve been busy with personal real life issues alongside all the upcoming videos Iโve been working on, so Iโm trying my best to take breathers when I can.
For a majority of the day Iโve actually just been giggling reading comments, so itโs been a nice change of pace haha
Comm for someone on Bluesky ๐ถ๐น๐โจ
Perfectly normal train running to greet you cmon give it a hug (FYI, its this guy i drew half a year ago and i still think about it)
A blog for me to shitpost and expose my deepest secrets. Jason Fakename, He/Him, mid 20's
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