Don't freak out about the sudden Korean. It's heartbreaking they missed out on all the things they could've had together.
아마 내가 텀블러에 한국어로 그리머x룽게에 대해서 처음 글을 쓴 사람이 되겠지...미래에 생길지도 모를, 이 가난하고 가난한 주식에 모든 것을 투자해버린 한국인 분을 위해서 작성함. 생길지 의심스럽긴 하지만 어쨌든...당신은 혼자가 아닙니다...당신만 외롭게 이 지구상에서 혼자 이 컾을 좋아하는 게 아닙니다.........여기에 쓴 내용에 대해서는 나중에 잘 다듬어서 영어로 번역하긴 할 거임.
나오키가 그리머를 죽인 건 지도 당황해서 그런 거 아니었을까? 캐릭터를 등장시키고 루엔하임까지 가게 한 건 좋았는데 거기서 룽게와 만나게 하고 보니 이 자식들 케미가 쓸데없이 좋아서 지도 난감해진 거 아님? 아니 생각을 해 봐...모든 사건이 일단락되고 그리머가 살아남으면 이 자식들은 당연히 약속대로 맥주 한 잔을 하게 될 거고, 자기들의 과거와 안고 있는 심리적인 문제가 너무도 비슷하다는 걸 알아차릴 거 아님? 말 그대로 단기간에 야 너두? 야 나두! 상태가 돼서 찐친이 될 거잖아? 그럼 뭐가 기다리고 있겠어? 룽게는 BKA 때려치우고 전 세계를 다시 자유롭게 돌아다닐 그리머를 따라가지 않겠음? 그리머가 큰 배낭 매고 "준비 다 됐어요?"하며 고개를 돌리면 "자네야말로 준비는 끝났나?" 하면서 사복 차림에 가방 든 룽게가 나오지 않겠냐고...말 그대로 역대급 퀴어 엔딩 나게 생겼으니까 나오키가 헉 그건 안 되지 하면서 그리머 죽인 거 아니냐는 킹리적 갓심이 든단 말임. 이거 작년부터 입이 닳도록 하던 소리인데 2023년의 절반이 지나가고 있는 이 시점까지 꽤 진심으로 떠들고 있다는 게 웃김.
개인적으로 나오키는 이성애 정상가족 지키기에 미쳐 있는 것 같아서 좀 거부감 드는 부분이 있음...룽게의 인간성 회복으로 딸과 대화를 다시 시작한 묘사를 넣는 건 좋았는데...얘한테서 그리머를 뺏어가는 건 정말 너무 했음...남자와 새 시작을 하는 하인리히 룽게가 뭐 어때서요...룽게는 창조주에게 남친을 뺏긴 거나 다름없는 거야...만나자마자 뺏겼어...어쩔 건데 이거...아 나도 알고 있어 그리머를 죽인 이유가 있는 거 당연히 나도 알지 그리고 그건 요한의 실명이 밝혀지지 않았고 어머니와 재회했는지도 모호하게 그려진 이유와도 같다는 걸 나도 잘 알아...아니 시발 그래도 그렇지.........대충 이런 생각의 흐름을 타고 내 안에 있는 오몰입 과타쿠가 날뛰는 편
그리고 혹시 누가 알겠음. 그리머는 살아 있었다면, 그리고 룽게와 함께였다면 그때는 정말로 자기 이름을 되잦았을지 누가 알겠냐고...나는 의심하지 않아...그리머가 이름을 찾는 과정에서 룽게는 반드시 관여될 거라고 의심하지 않는다고...
어나더 몬스터에서 바데만에게 그리머의 무죄를 입증해달라고 부탁한 사람 중에 룽게가 있다는 것도 너무...너무...웃겼음........아니 텐마와 수크가 그러는 건 매우 납득이 되는데 너까지? 이건 그냥 웃기다고 해야 할지....걍...그 묘사를 보고 룽게가 그리머를 알게 모르게 사랑했구나, 그리머에게 희망을 걸고 있었구나 이 생각밖에 안 들었음. 그게 아니라면 꼴랑 하룬가 이틀 정도 만난 사람에 대해서 그렇게까지 신경을 쓰겠냐...
이건 내가 룽게와 비슷한 부류의 인간(쓰고나니까 졸라 이상한데 어쨌든)이라서 더욱 자신 있게 할 수 있는 말임. 룽게는 그리머에게 첫눈에 반했을 확률이 높음. 루엔하임에서 그리머를 대하는 룽게의 그 일련의 태도는 평정을 지키고 있는 것처럼 보이지만 사실 깊게 동요하고 있고 놀라워하고 있다는 의미임. 말하자면 "세상에 저런 사람이 정말로 있다고? 와..."하고 있는 상태. 근데 룽게가 이 날 것 그대로의 감정에 진입하는 건 결코 쉬운 일이 아니었을 거고, 자각조차 잘 하지 못했을 거임. 그래서 룽게는 일단 평정을 지키고 평소의 태도대로 그리머를 대하지만 사실은 굉장히 이끌리고 있는 거라고 난 확신할 수 있음. 말하자면 룽게는 그리머에게 첫눈에 반했으면서, 어떤 희망을 발견했던 거임. 이 사람과 함께라면 어쩌면 지금까지 삶에서 봐 왔던 것과는 전혀 다른 것을 찾을 수 있을지도 모른다는 옅지만 강렬한 기대와 희망말임. 근데 창조주께서...무심하신 창조주께서...룽게에게서 기어코 그리머를 앗아가버림................아 지금 타자 치고 있는데도 빡치네 나오키 용서 못 해 진짜
아 줄글로 주접글 쓰는 게 너무 오랜만이라서 내용 엉망진창이네. 근데 뭐 어쩌겠어 나는 피곤하다...
I'm pretty chill and laid-back when I use English, but when I dive into conversations in my mother tongue, I go wild. It's just something I can't control…
A Life to Be Envied
I'm usually chill when I use English, but I kinda messed up this time… Sorry about that.
So, this post is basically a translation of the Korean post you can find in this link.
Initially, I was all calm and composed while translating, but in the end, I couldn't keep it together.
If Urasawa offed Grimmer in the story because their chemistry was just too good to handle? Maybe Urasawa didn't know what to do with them. Like, imagine if everything got resolved and Grimmer survived; they'd totally grab that beer they promised each other, right? And they'd probably realize how similar their pasts and issues are, becoming BFFs in no time with a "You too? Same here." kinda vibe.
So what would be next for them? Runge would ditch the BKA and tag along with Grimmer on his globetrotting adventures, right? Picture Grimmer, slinging a huge bag over his shoulder, turning to Runge (who's rocking some comfy casual wear instead of his usual suit) and asking, "You ready?"
This could've been the ultimate queer ending, so I can't help but suspect that Urasawa was like, "Nope, can't let that happen," and had Grimmer bite the dust. I've been ranting about this to my fellow Monster-loving friends since last year, and now that we're halfway through 2023, I'm still going strong, even translating this into English and posting it on Tumblr. It's just… my heart is so heavy…
I kinda feel like Urasawa is way too into preserving the hetero norm and the whole family thing, which rubs me the wrong way… Sure, it was nice to see Runge regain his humanity and reconnect with his daughter, but taking Grimmer away from him was just cruel. What's so wrong with Heinrich Runge starting fresh with another man? It's like Runge's boyfriend got stolen by the Creator himself… snatched away as soon as they met… How am I supposed to deal with that? I know, of course, that there's a reason why Grimmer was died, and I know that it's the same reason why Johan's real name wasn't revealed… But still, that's not enough…
My inner overinvested otaku is seriously losing its mind over this.
But seriously, if Grimmer had lived and been with Runge, he might've actually gotten his name back… I have no doubt Runge would've played a huge part in helping Grimmer find his true name…
And can I talk about how hilarious it is that Runge was one of the people begging Vardemann to prove Grimmer's innocence in Another Monster? It makes sense for Tenma and Suk, but Runge too? Is it funny or just… I dunno, when I read that part, I couldn't help but think that Runge had some low-key love for Grimmer and held out hope for him. Why else would he care so much about someone he only knew for a day or two?
As someone kinda similar to Runge (which sounds weird, I know), I'm pretty sure he fell hard for Grimmer at first sight. Runge might've seemed chill around Grimmer in Ruhenheim, but deep down, he was shook and amazed. Like, "There's actually someone like this out there?" But it wouldn't have been easy for Runge to acknowledge those feelings, and he might not even have realized it. So he played it cool and treated Grimmer like usual, all the while being super drawn to him. Basically, Runge fell head over heels for Grimmer right away and found a glimmer of hope. If I had to put that hope into words, it'd be: Maybe with this person, I could discover something totally different from everything I've experienced so far.
Yeah, that's the kind of faint yet powerful hope…
But the cold, uncaring Creator… that heartless Creator ripped Grimmer away from Runge…
아 영어...영어 어려워.........
You have a name.
Heinrich Runge EDIT | MONSTER
For him who is more obsessive than anyone else, yet still human.
Runge EDIT Pt.1
To the Ever-Curious,
There is something about you, sweet lover, that I just can’t put my finger on. Like a mystery I’ve already read but that I can’t quite remember the ending to, you astonish me.
Observant and free-thinking—you radiate open-mindedness. But it’s also OK to not care for the things that other people seem to think are so important. You just need to develop the confidence necessary to know that you are not the only one to have these thoughts. And you’re not “crazy.”
As hard-working as they come, you could never be useless. Never helpless. Never incompetent. And although you can come across to others as tundra-esque, it is not your fault that they do not understand your aloofness.
I know that you struggle to relate to others—that, sometimes, emotions feel so foreign to you—but that does not mean that you don’t have just the biggest heart. And I see—beyond the skyline nestled in your irises—that you are trying. I would never discount the efforts you are putting in.
When afforded the opportunity for alone time, you take it. And I would never dream of withholding that from you. So you best believe that I know, with everything you have inside of you, that when you give up your alone time to spend it with me—that’s something very special. I cherish that—and you.
It is OK to ask for help, stubborn one. And it’s OK if you ask it of me. I will never see you as lesser because you do not understand or because you require the kind of assistance that we all do from time to time. I will never see you as incapable just because you have a question. And I could never write you off just because you didn’t quite “get it” the first go around.
Connect with me, lover. Let me feel the way you think—the way you process—and let me relish it.
I need you in the same ways that you need understanding,
r.h.
P.S. Don’t lose your spark. Don’t let people squash your curiosity. You are allowed to be curious. You are allowed to ask questions, and if people can’t accept that, then they’re not the right people for you.
Song: Five by Sleeping at Last
Song: Strangers Like Me by Phil Collins
Oh, feel free to call me 'Ara'! :)
I'm sorry for showing too many reactions at once. I hope this mention doesn't overwhelm you. I've been listening to your playlist one by one, and I'm deeply moved with each song… The songs you have chosen fit them perfectly. They contain a sense of loneliness but never become excessively melancholic, and each of them expresses emotions in their own lovely way. I can tell how you perceive Grunge very well. (Looking back now, I feel a bit embarrassed because the songs I selected tend to be overly sentimental.) Thanks to you, I'm discovering a lot of great songs!
If it's alright with you, may I choose one song from your playlist and create an AMV? After completing one AMV, I've been wanting to create another one and I'm currently in the process of selecting a song. Your playlist has been a great inspiration to me!
I saw @arayashikiii's Grunge playlist, and for a while I've been considering whether I should share mine or not. After some internal debate, I decided that it won't hurt if I share it. So, here it is! I decided to do it in the same manner Arayashiki did, uploading links to YouTube, since it seemed like the easiest way to go about it. I've also put together some sort of cover. I used to post a lot of character playlists in the past. Shaking the old days, huh?
Arcade Fire - Supersymmetry I know you're living in my mind It's not the same as being alive ---- It's been a while since I've been to see you I don't know where, but you're not with me Heard a voice, like an echo But it came from me
Editors - Bullets If something has to change, then it always does ---- If something has to give, then it always will You don't need this disease, not right now
Goo Goo Dolls - Name And now we're grown-up orphans That never knew their names We don't belong to no one, that's a shame You could hide beside me Maybe for a while And I won't tell no one your name And I won't tell 'em your name
Matthew and the Atlas - Mirrors (Acoustic Version) My mind folding in the mirror There's no way I'm seeing any clearer Can you taste, taste it on your tongue now It's all that I can do to get around ---- My time is getting shorter I see I'm changing in a photograph My mind folding in the mirror My mind, my time You're the quiet in the violence You're the stranger at the door I don't wanna let you down But I don't wanna do this any more
Micah P. Hinson - It's Been so Long It's been so long Since I've seen you home Open hands and teeth and hearts And dreams I never can compete And I dont' even know your name Unpronouceable Unsatisfactable mind I've seen so gray Tell me theres not a way for all these Stories are the same
Kings of Leon - Wait for Me Cut open my heart Right at the scar And loosen up Gonna do what I'm told Go where I'm told And loosen up Take a shot in the rain One for the pain And loosen up I tried all the way Wait for me, wait for me It's all better now, it's all better now Wait for me, wait for me ---- Going to soften the blow Soften the blow And give it up I saw the surprise The look in your eyes I gave it up Gonna be who I am Be who I am And give it up I tried all the way Wait for me, wait for me It's all better now, it's all better now Wait for me, wait for me
Sad Lovers & Giants - German Cars I'm in love with German cars Gliding past me on the Autobahn Stainless idols with silent hearts Never turning, as we drift apart Are you a lover or a friend? It's not easy to pretend That you won't leave me in the end It's not easy, the end
Oberhofer - All Through the Night (Cyndi Lauper cover) All through the night Stray cat is crying, so stray cat sings back All through the night They have forgotten what by day they lack Oh, under those white street lamps There is a little chance they may see We have no past, we won't reach back Keep with me forward all through the night And once we start the meter clicks And it goes running all through the night Until it ends, there is no end