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"Boo hoo I'm 30 years old and i got bullied on the internet by a bunch of teens now I'm crying about it publicly to my teen followers" like grow tf up you lil bitch smfh

A lot of people have reached out to me about yesterday, so here's the only time I'll acknowledge it.

A group of roleplayers started insulting and purposely misgendering me under my own post because they think I'm creepy and too old to have a Wonka fan blog at 30.

They started insulting me through a roleplay thread in the replies and filling my notifications with their nonsense after I asked them to please stop.

The above three replies from me are the only time I interacted with any of them, and yet they decided the main problem here is my age and not the malicious misgendering and general nastiness.

"She. He. It. Whatever." "They don't even know what gender they are" They would have had to look at my profile to find out how old I am, and my pronouns are directly next to my age.

Then their followers began dogpiling me to try starting silly drama.

There's plenty more of this kind of comment, but I ran out of room for pictures. I was told several times to "mind my business" even though the comments were made under an image I am the original poster and creator of. It's a picture I took for laughs while testing out a light box I bought from Target a few years ago.

I'm not bothered by any of the age stuff because having fun with your interests isn't something that suddenly stops once you hit a certain age. This blog is all in good fun and I harming absolutely no one. Nobody is forcing you to interact with me or even acknowledge my existence if you think I'm weird for being here.

What grosses me out about the entire situation is the intentional and continued misgendering. There's no reason to be so cruel and nasty to people!

I also learned this particular group bullied a minor into deleting their blog a while before coming for me, so it's unfortunate to see I'm not the first and probably won't be the last person targeted by them. It's best to not give them any kind of attention because it only causes them to continue.

I'm not going to publicly post everyone involved with this group, and it is a lot, but please feel free to message me if you'd like to block them to avoid possible future interactions with them.

She need's a good morning pounding willy

*kneeling on the floor in the middle of wires, metal, and glass shards*

*Helps you up* What were you doing down there?

You're supposed to be in bed.

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Reblog to help others

Hello. My name is Nica. I want to stay anon until I get comfortable and I‘m not good with new people. But my question is, how do you advise someone to deal with their depression? Do you know any remedies that help with chronic sadness? Or panic attacks? My life isn‘t where I want it to be atm, dealing with a lot of stuff and I don‘t have any friends to talk to or get help from. Sorry if I‘m bothering you in the morning I just saw that you‘re leaving tumblr and it triggered an attack and I feel like crying. You were the one blog I liked and how you helped people and now I don‘t have anybody :/

Omg. No, no, no, you're not bothering me at all, & you're not just going to wake up one day & my account is going to be deactivated. I'll tell you all when I'm leaving & chances are I still won't deactivate, just cause. I'm so, so sorry, I didn't mean to trigger you. It was just an idea I had. I used to have really bad panic attacks to a point were my muscles would hurt for days, I had to be taken in an ambulance & put on meds cause I had them daily for like a month. I wouldn't eat, I was constantly snapping on people & irritated. I turned into someone who isn't me. My family noticed the change & pointed it out & I snapped on them for that. It was that bad. And this was recent, this wasn't like 5 years ago, all this happened LAST year. So I know from experience how difficult & painful what you're going through right now can be.

Even though I still have anxiety sometimes, I learned how to stop the attacks from happening, I don't have them anymore. But before then my doctor wanted to put me in a psych ward, (yeah, he literally recommended that) & I took Xanax (& Zoloft for two days) for a while, then it stopped helping, so he wanted to increase my dose. And I didn't want to become an addict or dependent on meds (I personally don't believe in taking meds for mental illnesses), so one day I just decided "fuck it, I'm not taking anything anymore" & I realized in that moment that the decision I made scared me a fucking lot cause I wasn't going to have anything to run to, but ultimately it was going to help me. I had to hurt & pray A LOT before I got better. While I was going through it I felt so hopeless & lost & I started questioning my faith in God cause I didn't feel like anything was changing, I felt worse tbh. I remember one night I just completely gave up & I drove to my mom's house in the middle of the night cause I didn't know what else to do. We went for a walk & talked until the sun came up. I never call my parents when I'm going through something terrible, I always try to resolve my problems on my own, so if I call them it's serious. But with time I got better. And I'm happier. So I'm living proof that you CAN overcome your biggest demons. My advice to you would be to start slow, you won't get better overnight. It's going to take time & it's going to hurt - I won't lie to you, but you WILL prevail in the end. But for now, distract yourself, get on your phone & find a funny video. Give yourself time to breathe & realize you're safe. That feeling will pass & you'll be okay again. & if you ever need someone to talk to to help you calm down, come hop in my dm's & we can hang out until you feel better. You don't have to be alone. & you definitely don't have to suffer alone. I often get people who ask me for advice in handling depression, that's partially the reason I haven't left Tumblr. I wouldn't want to abandon anybody. I'm so sorry you're going through this, honey. I hope things get better for you. Literally if you need me to just stay here for you just to help you, I will. & if you need any more resources in dealing with anxiety/depression, dm me. I'm so sorry for triggering you. I'll choose my words more carefully next time. Bless your heart, I'll pray for you.

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Organizations:

National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH); 866-615-6464

National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI); 800-950-NAMI (800-950-6264)

Anxiety and Depression Association of America (ADAA); 240-485-1001

American Psychiatric Association; 800-357-7924

Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, Division of Mental Health (CDC); 800-CDC-INFO (800-232-4636)

American Psychological Association; 800-374-2721

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Coping, Advocacy, and Support:

Anxiety and Depression Association of America: Support Groups

The Anxiety Network: Help and Support

Anxiety Central: Forums

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Medications for Anxiety Disorders (talk to your doctor first):

Cymbalta (duloxetine)

Celexa (citalopram)

Zoloft (sertraline)

Anafranil (clomipramine)

Prozac (fluoxetine)

Paxil (paroxetine)

Xanax (alprazolam)

Klonopin (clonazepam)

BuSpar (buspirone)

Valium (diazepam)

Ativan (lorazepam)

Lexapro (escitalopram)

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Links:

https://www.counseling.org/knowledge-center/mental-health-resources/anxiety

https://adaa.org/understanding-anxiety/generalized-anxiety-disorder-gad/resources

https://blog.thetransitionhouse.org/anxiety-help-and-resources-1

https://www.rtor.org/anxiety/

https://www.nami.org/About-Mental-Illness/Mental-Health-Conditions/Anxiety-Disorders

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Having some admin problems at uni at the moment, but it should be worked out soon I hope. Anyway, I'm exited to get back into a rhythm if I can