Vincent Van Gogh. Evening Landscape, Nuenen, 1885.

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Possibly the only fear great than death is love, real love. Finding out that you do love, that this is your nature, is the beginning of the end for everything in you that thinks it is separate. When you get upset with people, it's really because the love is there and you don't want it to be. That's why people who get divorced are often at each other's throats. They think that since they are getting divorced, there shouldn't be love. But it is there. You may not like it, you may not want to live with someone, but the love is still there because there is no such thing as loving once and then not loving. When people are able to face the fact that the romantic part of love may be gone but the caring or connection is still there, it can actually free their energy. And you might as well get used to it with one person because you will find eventually that it is there with all beings. It's just there. It's a done deal. It doesn't matter who it is. If you can accept love you will know when to stay with someone and when to leave them.

— Adyashanti, emptiness dancing

Wong Mee

One of the ways in which modern liberalism goes wrong in ethics is its singular focus on consent. Don’t get me wrong, consent is always necessary is any type of relation or exchange between individuals, but it isn’t sufficient.

This is why modern liberals will see nothing wrong with bdsm, pornography, surrogacy, or cosmetic surgery. “If both parties consent, then what’s the problem?” they’ll say.

There needs to be ethical standards for how we treat other people, regardless of if individuals think they are worthy of being treated by those standards. This concept is already recognized in most legal systems. If I sign a form saying that you can kill me whenever you feel like it, you would still be culpable for murder if you followed through.

Women are the ones who lose out when this concept is not applied. We have been conditioned to believe that we are not worthy of being treated right, so we allow others to take advantage of us. Consent being by the only moral consideration people care about takes advantage of this fact.

isabelle adjani in "ondine" (1974) .

okay but can we live here

If you want to feel like you're dancing in a beach party as the sun is setting, listen to this!

Please pray for me, my mind is playing tricks on me and making me feel less than

Of course, may God bless you and comfort you!

There is a prayer that I just stumbled across online that you may find helpful:

From the pain of self-hatred, Deliver me, Jesus. From a negative view of my body and self, Deliver me, Jesus. From disbelief in Your love for me, Deliver me, Jesus. From doubting that I was created good, Deliver me, Jesus. From believing I am a burden, Deliver me, Jesus. From the desire to be completely self-reliant, Deliver me, Jesus. From negative self-talk and internal dialogue, Deliver me, Jesus. From the demands of perfectionism, Deliver me, Jesus. From my own unattainable expectations, Deliver me, Jesus. From the pull to neglect my bodily needs, Deliver me, Jesus. From excessive ascetic practices that You are not asking of me, Deliver me, Jesus. From the denial of comforts that would draw me closer to You, Deliver me, Jesus. From the temptation to harm my self: bodily, emotionally, or spiritually, Deliver me, Jesus. From the temptation to work without rest, Deliver me, Jesus. When I doubt Your love for me, Be with me, Jesus. When I want to hide from Your love, Be with me, Jesus. When I doubt that You want my good, Be with me, Jesus. When I despise myself, Be with me, Jesus. When I engage in intentional self-harm, Be with me, Jesus. When I cannot escape my own self-criticism, Be with me, Jesus. When I get disconnected from my own self and lost in dissociation, Be with me, Jesus. When I numb my pain in unhealthy ways, Be with me, Jesus. When I avoid healthy self-care, Be with me, Jesus. When I neglect my own needs, Be with me, Jesus. That I am your beloved child, Jesus, I trust in You. That I was created in Your image and likeness, Jesus, I trust in You. That You are wildly in love with me, Jesus, I trust in You. That You desire my good, Jesus, I trust in You. That You will fulfill my good desires, Jesus, I trust in You. That I am worthy of care and attention, Jesus, I trust in You. That I am worthy of rest, Jesus, I trust in You. That I am worthy of food and nourishment, Jesus, I trust in You. That I am worthy of the care & love I extend to others, Jesus, I trust in You. That You want me to will my own good, Jesus, I trust in You.

Me, still insane: I used to be sooo crazy