Y'all This One Makes Me SOBBBBBB

wilson is LITERALLY his wife

boys are evil and don't appreciate art

it's absolutely soul crushing to share a piece of media with someone who doesn't appreciate it. i often find it difficult to connect with my younger brother without having shared media to discuss. so I finally showed him my favorite movie, dead poets society of course, and his reaction was to call Neil stupid and say that the overall film was "ok, kinda funny sometimes". meanwhile I had cried twice and was shaking and sobbing.

it's ok. he's not an artist. it didn't move him the way it moved me and it doesn't have to. and yet I find myself disappointed and upset that he'll never want to "carpe diem" or suck the marrow out of life. that he'll never let out a barbaric yawp or be good REALLY good.

i dunno. just thoughts

he’s so pretty i hope nothing horrifically ironic for his profession happens to him

20th birthday

idk how to feel

will update

more stuff related to the tiktok ban

if you followed the account @bigdorkbiggertits on tiktok, that's me! so i'm still alive and here and will possibly be posting my own tiktoks onto here so uh yeah that's it!

get mad if you want but I'll always be a hater to (fictional) children idgaf

my personal experience with DPS and other ramblings

my mother introduced me to the film when I was about 13 or so and I immediately latched onto it and made it part of my personality. i became an extremely pretentious high schooler and would unironically say shit about sucking the marrow out of life (and yes I am embarrassed about it now)

but when I was applying for colleges and I told my mom I wanted to be a theatre major she kinda lost her shit and told me that it was a stupid waste of time and money and i was absolutely GOING THROUGH IT

fast forward to now, I'm a junior in college (theatre major) and I watched DPS with my mom and my brother (his first time watching it) and I realized that my mom fundamentally misunderstood the point of the movie

I will never forget her telling me that she AGREED WITH NEIL'S DAD AND THAT KEATING WAS A DANGEROUS PERSON AND A BAD EDUCATOR

my brother who is into stem and is unappreciative of the arts anyway said that Neil was just kinda stupid and that the movie wasn't that good (????? major side eye on that one but whatever)

i just got so sad for little 17 year old me. she was incredibly sensitive and fragile and I just wonder had my mother been even just slightly harsher about me being a theatre major what would have happened to me?

then a few weeks ago I was talking to my friend. she's the type of person you don't have casual conversations with, you immediately dive into philosophy and morals and art and knowing each other's souls.

we got to the topic of dead poets society and the people who "just don't get it". the people who watch it once and never think about it again. the people who are so content that they are happy to remain stagnant. those who don't yearn for change, or to be known, to make art. those who are content to live and not

Live!!!!

and I'll never understand them and they'll never understand me. and the world will continue on like this. there will be people who stand still and those who can't stop moving

Man killed himself exactly how I expect a theater kid would. Dramatic ass.

burn the house down with the toast

You took my pen by accident

I remember more that most

You took my heart on purpose

Burn the house down with the toast

You made my walls come screeching down

The friction started a fire

You took my crown, my wealth my pride

Now ashes on a pire

send asks, i'm bored!!!!!!