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I have a close friend who’s being forced to study economics even though she hates it in another high school. She’s so miserable she literally wants to k!ll herself , and for what? Just because her parents think it's a "smart" career choice? This happens all the time kids pushed into STEM or business fields they have zero passion for, just to meet their parents’ expectations.

the lesson is : Not everyone is meant to be an economist, doctor, or engineer. Killing creativity for the sake of a "stable job" only creates unhappy, burnt-out adults. A career without passion is just a slow death.

like Imagine ur dream is to become a lawyer or want to study criminology (that's my friend dream ) like fr imagine waking up every day dreading what you do, forcing yourself through a field and studying something you despise, just to end up in a job that drains the life out of you. That’s not success it’s suffering.People say, “You’ll thank us later.” No, she won’t. No one thanks their parents for making them miserable sorry . No one looks back and says, “Wow, I’m so glad I sacrificed my happiness for a degree I never wanted.”

But if she fails? If she breaks under the pressure? Then suddenly, it’s “Why didn’t you tell us you were struggling?” As if she didn’t. As if they didn’t hear her when she said she didn’t want this.

this is a reminder to choose what you love not WHAT OTHER LOVES even if it's parents/friends/ teachers ...

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I'm watching House and I keep falling in love with this show🫶🏾. Best show everrrr, will defo rewatch once I finish lol, I already miss some episodes😭

Folded my laundry, was supposed to go out but aunty was stuck watching some show the whole day so that was uneventful. I cooked and washed many loads of dishes, I should prolly wash my hair but I'm too lazy to do so :/

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:0 the date 2005!

Today I tried to complete the painting I started yesterday, but ehh, will finish tomorrow once I get over the overthinking phase.

I did pilates as usual today, and I'm seriously thinking about actually going ahead with signing one of the 2 modelling contracts offered to me, but my mom won't let me 💔but I want to take it (modelling) seriously urghhhh.

Idkkk, and I should actually finish with the uni stuff, idk idk idkkekjskaksvdndksksk I did NOT plan to be alive to experience this moment oh my gooooddddddddddd😖

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Laundry day, cleaning day, shopping day today. Started watching 'when life gives you tangerines', and gosh do I love IU.

Someone force me to study Arabiccc 😭

Today's lunch was lentils and rice, made myself an avocado milkshake with my own twist. I added avocado, milk, sugar, coffee, crushed chia seeds, moringa power, and the most stupid but addictive addition was cerelac 😭

Did nothing much today except spend an hour cooking and looking at my wip art piece.

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Got a sudoku puzzles book, I think I've completed intellectual girl status. I don't have much to say tho,

Peace out x

I love your blog hun it’s so pretty 🌸

Oh em gee hiiii Alice angel, you have a pretty blog yourself too, you're so kind >_< !!! 💗x

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143 - I Love You.

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Ways to Shift the Angle || It's all about perspective.

1. Go outside ugly.

No makeup. No cute outfit. Just step out. Feel the wind. Notice the clouds like they’re watching you back. You’re not there to be seen, you’re there to see, aka you're right as a HUMAN.

2. Drink water with dramatic flair.

Pour it into your prettiest glass. Add lemon, cucumber, or mint if you’re extra. Sip it like it’s holy. Because it is. Hydration is a rebuke to the decay.

3. Unfollow the perfect. Follow the real.

Curate your feed like a gallery. If it doesn’t make you dream bigger or breathe deeper, cut it. You become what you consume.

My moto has always been See it, be it.

4. Romanticize something stupid.

Fold laundry like a French film heroine. Wash dishes like you’re in a music video. Make it art. You don’t need permission, you have free will!!!!

5. Make something and let it suck.

Doodle, paint, sing badly, dance worse, write shit poetry and convince yourself you're freaking Edgar Allan Poe. Expression is not a talent contest, it’s your soul stretching its arms. There so many ways to do that.

6. Touch grass... but like, really touch it.

Like fr. Sit with your bare legs on the ground. Let dirt under your nails(you can clean it l8r, it ain't gonna kill you) Be wild. You’re not a screen. You’re skin and blood and thunder.

7. Talk to yourself with tenderness.

You’ve survived every ugly day so far. That deserves softness. Praise yourself out loud like you would your best friend.

8. Write a letter to the girl you’ll be in a year.

Tell her what you hope for. What you’re scared of. What you’re trying. Then seal it. Hide it. Come back to it later and weep at your own growth.

9. Watch a movie you loved at 13.

Feel how it hits different. That’s -perspective- seeing the same story with new eyes, older eyes, wiser eyes.

10. Do something the algorithm doesn’t care about.

Learn to knit. Bake bread (!!!!). Read a dusty book. These aren’t for clout. They’re for soul.

You don’t need a full rebrand. You need a tilt. A reframe. A second glance.

Your life isn’t just a reel of wasted time. It’s a painting in progress. And even the mess matters. Every shade. Every smudge. Every layer.

Perspective is more than a trick of the eye. It’s a rebellion. A soft uprising against despair. It says, yes, this sucks right now, but it’s not the whole story. You are not the rot. You are the artist holding the brush, choosing what to do next.

I don't believe everything happens for a reason. But I do believe in reshaping the meaning of things that happen.

So next time you’re lying there, staring at the ceiling like it holds answers, waiting for a sign, turn the paper. Turn yourself. A few degrees is all it takes.

And suddenly, what looked like the end… is just the start of something strange and beautiful.

Hi Bloommmmm ^¬^!

It's Angel! I've also been trying to learn Italian, :D

I use Duolingo, LingQ, and StudyStack. LingQ is a bit more helpful though.

I just wanted to know what resources you use to study Italian. I feel like while what I use is helpful, I'm not actively learning something. It'd be nice to get your recommendations on how to effectively study the language — including Chinese!

hiii pokiiiie sorry for this laaate answer I've been really busy with school and stuff but here I am !

How to actually learn a language

Learning a language is exciting at first, then frustrating, then exciting again, then you feel like you’re not learning anything, then suddenly, out of nowhere, you understand something and it feels magical. But for a lot of people, that "magical" moment never really comes because they get stuck in a cycle of half-learning a little bit of Duolingo here, a few YouTube videos there, and months later, they still can’t form a full sentence.

I’ve been there. And I’ve learned that the secret isn’t just "practicing every day" or "using the right apps" it’s about knowing how to learn. Not every language works the same way, and the way you approach it changes everything. So let’s break it down properly.

1. Why Are You Learning? This Changes Everything

Before anything else, you have to ask yourself: Why do I want to learn this language? Because different reasons need different strategies.for example

If you're just learning Italian for a trip, you don’t need deep grammar knowledge. You need to train your ear, memorize key phrases, and practice pronunciation so people understand you.

If you’re planning to study in Italy, then a casual "Ciao! Come stai?" won’t cut it. You need a structured approach, real grammar knowledge, and at least a B2 level to survive in an academic setting.

If you're learning Chinese just for fun, you can take it easy with apps and light immersion. But if you ever want to work or live there, you must take it seriously Chinese isn't a language you can just "pick up" casually.

Knowing why you’re learning changes how you learn. If you only need basic conversation skills, focus on listening and speaking. If you need full fluency, you have to do the hard work grammar, writing, and structured learning.

2. The "App Trap" Why Most People Feel Stuck

A lot of people get stuck at the beginner level because they rely too much on language apps. I did this with Italian at first. I spent like the whole summer in WLINGUA and thought I was making progress, but when I tried to form a sentence on my own and yeah I found nothing stored in my brain

The problem with apps like Duolingo, LingQ, and Memrise is that they teach you words and phrases, but they don’t teach you how to think in the language. You memorize sentences, but you don’t really understand why they work the way they do. yeaaa I can say Duolingo is the like N1 app for me and it's the best for Chinese in my opinion cuz it help u memo the characters cuz they keep repeating them for u and Chinese is all about memorizing so I guarantee duo for this one

So what’s the fix? You have to combine active and passive learning:

Apps (Passive Learning) → Great for exposure but won’t make you fluent.

Textbooks (Active Learning) → Boring but necessary for real grammar and keeping ur mind organized

Speaking & Writing (Real Learning) → Forces you to produce the language, not just recognize it.

For example, when I started learning Italian seriously, I switched from just using apps to actually writing short journal entries in Italian every day. Even if my sentences were simple and full of mistakes, it forced my brain to think in Italian instead of just recognizing words. That’s when I really started to improve

3. How to Learn Based on the Language Itself

Not all languages are learned the same way. Some are easy to pick up, others will absolutely fight you every step of the way.

European Languages (Italian, Spanish, French, etc.)

🏷️ If you're learning a language that's similar to English (or another language you know), you're lucky. The grammar is different but still follows familiar patterns.

🏷️ You can skip textbooks if you just want casual fluency.

🏷️ Immersion works really well watching shows, listening to music, and reading will naturally help you pick up structure.

🏷️ The hardest part is usually verb conjugation (french have the hardest conjugation 🦅) so focus on mastering the most common tenses first.

Asian Languages or characters based languages (Chinese, Korean, Japanese .. )

🏷️ Now, if you're learning something like Chinese or Japanese, it’s a whole different story. You cannot learn these languages the same way you’d learn Italian or Spanish.

🏷️ Textbooks are necessary. Asian languages don’t follow English patterns, so you need structures (u don't have to buy them there are pdf and online one )

🏷️ Pronunciation is critical. If you don’t learn tones early in Chinese, for example, you’ll struggle to be understood.

🏷️ Characters matter more than speaking at first. With Chinese, if you only focus on speaking and ignore characters, you’ll hit a wall fast

I learned this the hard way when I started studying Chinese. At first, I tried learning the way I learned Italian listening to native speakers, trying to pick up words, avoiding grammar at first. Big mistake. Chinese doesn’t work like that. The best way is to follow a structured course with a teacher (even if it’s online) and make sure you're learning characters alongside everything else it's tiiiring at first but it worth u will found teachers in YouTube who explain Chinese course module by module don't go straight to vocabulary or trying to force yourself into writting ，start with tones and pronunciation of initial and finals (mā , jiē ... )

then u will start learning how to read pinyin the more u revise the textbook the more u listen to the language, and greetings phrases for ex the more u will start to memo the words in Pinyin u will see the real characters and u will be like yes this is how nihao look like (nihao - 你好 ）and step by step u will rise from beginner to intermediate ..

4. Speaking: The Hardest Part (But The Most Important)

Most people avoid speaking because it’s awkward and scary. But here’s the truth: If you don’t practice speaking, you will never feel confident using the language.

The trick is to start early. Even if you don’t know much, just try.

Talk to yourself. Describe what you’re doing, even in broken sentences.

Use voice notes. Record yourself speaking and compare it to native speakers.

Find a language partner. Apps like busuu (I use it for Italian ) or HelloTalk are great for casual practice.

With Italian, I was scared to speak at first. I felt like I’d sound dumb. But when I finally forced myself to have a real conversation (even though it was full of mistakes), I realized people don’t care if you mess up. They just appreciate the effort.

For Chinese, it was even harder because of the tones, but practicing with a tutor helped a lot. When learning a tonal language, you cannot guess pronunciation you need feedback.

5. The "Lost Motivation" Phase & How to Get Past It

Every language learner hits a point where they feel stuck. You’ve been studying for months, but you still don’t feel fluent. What do you do?

Switch up your method. If you’ve only been using apps, try writing. If you’ve only been writing, try speaking.

Make it fun. Watch something you actually enjoy. I watch cdrama and I try to pick random words / phrases and I keep repeating them and use them for daily talks

Track progress differently. Instead of measuring how much you don’t know, look back at what you’ve already learned.

I hit this phase with english after like it's been 2y I felt like I wasn’t improving. But then I found a book I had tried reading at the beginning and realized I could actually understand the 60% . That’s when I knew I had made real progress so to improve try to not compare urself to fluent ppl !

sources for chinese and Italian

Chinese textbook (pdf download textbook and workbook)

buusu the app (the best for Italian if u don't know how to start )

youtube channel num 1

youtube channel num 2

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