Celebrating Spooky Month With A Fun Little Werewolf X Vampire Au

welt chronic pain headcanons. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁

characters⟡ welt yang, himeko, pom pom, lieserl albert einstein, frederica nikola tesla, march 7th, (mentioned) dan heng, (mentioned) stelle

relationships⟡ n/a

~ because he has died 3 times and gotten horribly beaten up practically constantly in hi3, welt has chronic joint and nerve pain

~ that's why he made the star of eden into a cane when he replicated it, so it could have two functions

~ his pain is the worst in his knees and fingers (only made worse when he would overwork himself as an animator) but he has pain in all of his joints

~ his pain fluctuates so he doesn't need to use the cane every day (but he probably should most of the time)

~ on good days he just wears knee compression braces and a compression glove on his bad hand

~ most of the time he doesn't use his cane when he needs to, a habit leftover from when he was sovereign of anti-entropy and couldn't show weakness in front of others

~ pom pom and himeko (plus einstein and tesla when he was on earth) can always tell when he's pushing through the pain and refusing to use his cane

~ pom pom and tesla lecture him throughly on the benefits of using his cane when he needs it (and the consequences of not doing so)

~ einstein and himeko just hand him his cane and watch him for the rest of the day to make sure he's using it when he needs to (if he's not they snitch on him to pom pom/tesla)

~ although he wants to go on as many trailblaze adventures as he can, he only goes when his pain is mostly under control (that's why he didn't go to jarilo-vi the first time)

~ subduing and neutralizing stellarons make his pain flare up so he has to go back to the Express immediately after to lay down

~ theres one bathroom on the Express (but it is big, there's a whole car dedicated to it) and welt hogs the shower because the hot eases the pain in his joints while he's in it

~ welt has a weighted blanket that he always sleeps with on the Express, when they spend multiple nights off of the Express he goes without it because it's too heavy to bring with

~ without the blanket he wakes up multiple times during the night from pain (if he even sleeps at all)

~ with the blanket he wakes up a lot less and his joints feel less achy in the morning

~ when march was learning how to sew (to alter her outfits) one of the first advanced projects she made (with welt's input and help) was a weighted arahato stuffed animal that could be heated up so he could ease his joint pain

~ march has the prototype version of the stuffed robot and insists the two robots are friends

~ occasionally his pain is so bad he can't get out of bed and on those days the trailblaze trio sets up in his room and they watch movies and play games to keep him company

~ welt always insists he doesn't need help but everyone (the express and his earth family) ignore him and help him anyway

~ when his finger/knuckle pain prevents him from drawing march takes pictures of the things he wants to draw so he can sketch it later when he feels better

in coffee shop au civilization, everyone goes for the yaoi

cringetober day 13 - coffee shop au

Lighter’s Mental State

PSA WARNING : DO NOT READ IF YOU CANNOT HANDLE TALKS OF SUICIDAL THOUGHTS.

Background Context: I was speed running my chance to have Inky the stray black cat as my pet and changed the time to Evening, but I was at Lumina Square when I did it. So, I went to the map icon to go back to Sixth Street when I saw Lighter’s icon in the Lumina Square area and I had to check out why he’s there.

I was not prepared for the interaction between us.

I just want everyone to know that I am not a licensed psychologist, I am only days away from getting my Bachelor’s degree in Psychology, but Lighter’s choice of words are heavily implying that he has suicidal ideation.

You have three choices to tell him. I already did the second and third choices. This is what he’ll say:

The first pic happens when you picked the last one, and he’s going to do a bunch of death jokes to lighten the mood, but the Proxy will still remind him in the end to live his life. If you pick the second, it’s the rest of the pictures and he’s going to tell you that he is doing fine and was overthinking his situation, but will say he envies you for a secret reason. I will try to find him again tomorrow for the first one, but I just want people to know that Lighter has suffered and is still dealing with PTSD from his past so every time the Proxy talks to him, Lighter becomes happier because of us. His interactions with the Proxy does show that he does care about our relationship with him and that he will not do anything reckless for the sake of his relationship with us.

Literally minutes after our interaction. He’s in a happier state.

Lighter might not want people to know his situation, but the instant he hears someone wanting him to live or is willing to die with him, he changes his mind and wants to live so the person who cares about him doesn’t have to worry about him. He truly is a well written character and I will defend him with everything I have.

atsushi continuously realizing he is surrounded by absolute freaks

knight of beauty 🌹

In this sweet dream, only i remain.

Nah causr i expected lice, fleas, ticks for gods sake.

BUT A FUCKING ANT JUST FELL OUT OF MY HAIR??

I am so in fucking love with the stairway to heaven animation and the only ways I can express that is to either say I am bricked the FUCK up, or I give in to the uber instincts of my uber autism and write an essay on what I THINK are some of the references/inspirations used in the animation. I chose the essay because I need people to know why I am "bricked up."

I am fully willing to accept if I am wrong/reaching for some of these but even then, I think it's cool that I can still connect certain moments with things I enjoy. With that out of the way, behold my analysis/breakdown of Stairway to Heaven!

Spoilers below the cut not just for the animation, but also minor spoilers for Kane Pixel's backrooms series, Liminal Land, Skinamarink, and Mandela Catalogue. Also just a warning for the incoherent ramblings of a guy who's abnormal about analog/indie horror. Please please please please PLEASE go watch the animation if you haven't.

First, "subject 087" is in reference to SCP-087, the never ending staircase SCP. I actually didn't even catch that the first time until I scrolled down to the comments lmao. In my defense, when SCP was blowing up in the mid 2010s I wasn't really old enough to appreciate it or find the format interesting (and honestly it is still hard for me to really get into it, but that's more of a me thing. Conceptually a clinical approach to horror like with SCPs or in All Tomorrows is fascinating, but it can be a bit of a slog for me), so I only knew the main three's numbers. (173, 096, and 682).

"Motion detected" has been used in just about every analog horror series now, but Mandela Catalogue is probably the main series that popularized the trope when analog horror first started getting popular.

The backrooms is, obviously, the backrooms. You can probably assume it's Kane Pixels' backrooms because his version really blew up but it feels more like early days backrooms before we got all those monsters and almond water stuff. (Which btw it's so funny we got "almond water" from whoever the first person to say the air smells like almonds was. For reference, almonds smell like cyanide. OP was trying to say the air smells toxic, not that almonds are the safest thing to consume in the backrooms.)

This shot just reminded me of The Oldest View, ALSO from Kane Pixels. Tbh that's probably just me but I thought it was neat.

Next up, the door. Aside from the obvious 333 angel numbers which also appear very prominently in Mandela Catalogue (this series is going to pop up a lot, I'm sorry), but for some reason it reminded me of the Silent Hill 4 door. Again, that's just the tism probably.

Skinamarink ahh shot, was honestly expecting the door to just poof, disappear.

Next, the shot with all the houses. While KP's Backrooms do have that creepy neighbourhood, this exact shot and set up feels closer to H.O.M.E. from Liminal Land.

And then our most darling biblically accurate horror icon Columbina would make False Gabriel proud, and just... she is so fucking cool and creepy in this and I love her so much.

This whole sequence was for one absolutely horrifying and beautiful, but what caught MY attention were the settings and locations shown. These are standard creepy liminal spaces and analog horror gore censorship, yes, but they also reminded me of the locations Trevor Henderson uses in his art pieces, so suffice to say I think Columbina looks RIGHT AT HOME regardless of how you wanna look at these shots. And the animation on her face opening up into wings and eyes is just an absolute chef's kiss moment. Props to the animators, man.

This trope, the whole main character monologue overlaying the screen moment, very common in analog horror but for me, again popularized by its use in the Mandela Catalogue.

The smudged picture is a reference to one of the ending shots in Skinamarink, where it pans over the childhood photos only for their heads and faces to now be missing, which most agree is the movie's way of saying these kids were trapped her for so long they eventually just stopped existing/faded into nothingness.

And finally, the classic ending scene of KP's first Backrooms video.

I know for a fact there are probably other references to liminal spaces/analog horror that I either missed or they're like general concepts/tropes used in analog horror. I did almost mention the mill in petscop because of Columbina's "two in the mill, one taken, one left" because that phrasing felt really specific, but it doesn't quite fit the vibes of all the other references. Also her only being seen in the camera is a trope used in all manner of horror media. My first thought was the forest scene in VHS (2012) where the murderer could only be seen in the film static.

I just wanted to get the especially cool/unique moments out there. I didn't even touch on the storyline but that's because it seems pretty straightforward. I'm also aware not many people are gonna read my red string corkboard ramblings, which I'm fine with. I just needed to get this out of my system, but I do appreciate those who did take the time to indulge my ramblings!

That's all for now, back to whatever the hell I had planned for today.

How anime girls be standing when talking to the main character