Fanfiction Frustrations

My Thoughts On Evan’s Actions In Dear Evan Hansen

Spoiler Warning For Dear Evan Hansen

I’m personally sympathizer for Evan Hansen. I understand why he acted the way he did and lied, even though I don’t agree with actions.

I know most people are mad at Evan for lying about Connor. What Evan did was wrong, it’s wrong to give a family false hope about their son who they had just lost to suicide. It’s wrong to lie about someone who passed away.

You can say “I would never do that, ever.” but remember Evan Hansen isn’t you.

Evan’s a neurodivergent, anxious, depressed, suicidal, lonely kid, he’s also scared of public speeches and talking to others in general.

He didn’t have any friends either. Even Jared only thought of Evan as a “family friend”.

So when he talked to Connor, even though it was very brief, and Connor shouted at him, when Connor signed his cast he might’ve thought they were friends. So losing one of the only people who somewhat treated him as a friend, hurt him so much.

He didn’t want to lie about Connor. When he was first given the letter by Connor’s parents, he wanted to tell them the truth.

But he couldn’t. He was anxious and nervous so he panicked, as a result he lied out of panic.

He didn’t want to hurt Connor’s parents by lying to them, he didn’t mean to or want to lie to them, but he lied out of panic.

He didn’t want to hurt them even more by telling them the truth, that their son didn’t write anyone a letter or any note before committing suicide.

When Connor’s family asked him about Connor and Evan’s friendship, he didn’t want to lie but he didn’t want to upset them any further. That’s why he lied.

Also, having a fake, imaginary, overly romanticized friendship with someone, even if that person had passed away, made him feel less lonely and alone. Evan never had a close friend and neither did Connor, he didn’t want to tell Connor’s parents, Connor didn’t have any true friends and him and Connor weren’t really friends. He didn’t want Connor’s parents to become even more sad by telling them Connor wasn’t really friends with anyone and was all alone.

Evan didn’t want to lie while giving his speech about Connor either. But he was once again anxious and nervous so he panicked and lied out of panic. This time he had so many people in front of him and cameras surrounding him, he didn’t want to upset so many people by telling the truth so he lied, hoping that would make things better.

The situation was like a double ended sword for Evan. Lying to people would be wrong, and he knew that, but it wouldn’t hurt them as much if he told them the truth, and if they didn’t found out the truth they wouldn’t be as devastated.

I’m not defending Evan’s actions, what he did was wrong. I’m not saying being a neurodivergent, anxious, depressed, suicidal, lonely kid is an excuse for his actions.

But when you think about all this from Evan’s perspective there are explanations for his lies.

I’m just saying, Evan didn’t want to hurt people, but he didn’t really know how to help them so he thought lying would work, and it worked until it didn’t.

In the end, Evan realized his mistakes and owned up for them, he didn’t make excuses for them, he apologized and tried to make things better even though the damage had already been done, he tried his best to make things better.

🎶🎵 Season 3 will come one day, someday 🎶🎵

Watching Good Omens season 2 was like reading the most perfect, slow-burn 100k-word fanfiction in a nice, relaxing bubble bath surrounded by scented candles. But when you get to the end, you realise it's an abandoned, unfinished fic that was last updated five years ago, and you are left alone with this earth-shattering cliffhanger, and on top of that, someone throws a toaster in.

5 Stages of Good Omens

Season 2 Episode 6

Denial

“No. Good Omens season 2 ended at episode 5.”

Anger

“WHY?! They were perfect together! It doesn’t make sense!”

Bargaining

“If only they had gone off to Alpha Centauri together. They would’ve been together forever.”

Depression

“(ugly sobbing) They were too perfect for everything, for all the other angels and demons, for this world and cruel heaven and hell. They were so perfect for each other, but now they are no longer together! (ugly sobbing continues)”

Acceptance

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Crowley’s Angel

While rewatching Good Omens season 1 & 2 I counted how many times Crowley calls Aziraphale by his name and the nicknames he has for him.

Here are the results:

Angel: 21

Aziraphale: 14

Best Friend: 4

Idiot: 4

Clever: 1

Bastard: 1

The fact that Crowley calls him “angel” more than “Aziraphale”, is so romantic, cute and sweet.

We all wanted Aziraphale and Crowley to end up like Beelzebub and Gabriel, having their happily ever after but they ended up being more like Maggie and Nina. Even after the most epic adventure, and 6000 years of pining, they still couldn’t be together.

Ineffable Fandom After Season 2

Ineffable Fandom: WE NEED A NEW SEASON!

Everyone else: YOU JUST FINISHED ONE!

Ineffable Fandom: WHEN’S THE NEXT ONE?!

Back when times were simple in season 1

Remember in season 1, when people were debating over Aziraphale & Crowley’s relationship. Despite Neil Gaiman, Michael Sheen and David Tennant confirming ineffable husbands being in love, there were still some that believed and argued they were just platonic best friends.

And then season 2 came and hit all of us like a truck.

His Angel

I want Crowley to call Aziraphale “my angel” in Good Omens season 2

He already calls him “my angel” in other languages so why not in English?

Bonus points if it’s in a protective way like “stay away from my angel”.

Am I asking too much?

Happy Birthday Sherlock Holmes!

Even after 170 years…

You’re still the greatest and the most genius, famous detective the world has ever seen.

Remembered for your adventures with Dr. John Watson.

My Thoughts On A Harry Potter Reboot/Remake

To be honest, I would prefer a Marauders prequel series to see everything that happened before Harry.