“you´re Just Skinny And Under 25″ Lmao 

I think I just expected that someday someone would come along who was like me and because they were like me they would care about what I was hiding and dig it out of me with a blunt instrument but that person has never come and they never will and instead of mourning that I should just turn the blunt instrument onto myself and show what I find to others 

This reminds me of people who give me compliments on my appearance and quickly add something like “well it´s easy for you - you are genetically blessed” or “I only have to look at food and gain weight.”.. something along those lines. You can explain your workout regime, strict diet, skincare routine or general lifestyle choices all you want - they just keep talking about genetics or they will start to look down on you for the effort you put into your looks. The truth is that they want all those things (being in good shape, having better skin, etc.) but they want it to be easy. These people don´t want to hear how much discipline it takes, how much time, energy and money you have to invest in order to maintain a certain look. Talking about how some people have it easier, because of money or genetics or whatever won´t get you anywhere. 

Not to be a total rude bitch tho… but I work out almost everyday, I limit if not abstain from junk food, I drink plenty of water, I only drink certain types of alcohol and absolutely no soda. I get my lips injected, I see a dermatologist, I’m planning on getting lipo + non invasion nose job + Botox jaw contouring soon. I have hair extensions, I get my lashes and eyebrows dyed and maintained every two weeks… I get my nails all jacked up every three. I go tanning. I literally spend thousands of dollars a year on hair, skin, nails and makeup. Not to mention the dancer wardrobe I’ve accumulated… and anyone who thinks I shouldn’t make more money after all this effort can literally suck my ass!

I put so much love in myself, my dreams, and my goals that it's only a matter of time before I get everything I want.

Honestly fuck this millennial pink pseudo wellness bullshit about being gentle to yourself and always practicing mindfulness and committing acts of self care by consuming Product™️, I’m gonna continue being that bitch faced waif in all black running around the city at ungodly hours with wads of cash and ritalin in a designer bag and a peppermint vape hanging out the side of my mouth, texting on two phones simultaneously.

this is basically a summary of everything you need to do to level up

Essential Steps followed by the most successful courtesans:

She drastically improves her appearance.

She upgrades her knowledge of etiquette and manners and improves her social skills.

She changes her environment in order to increase the chances of meeting men with money.

She makes a conscious decision to stop associating herself with men of lesser means and inferior position.

She continues climbing no matter what, because settling is never an option.

From ‘How to Date Like a Courtesan’ by Celeste Mgboli

“The only safety is in money… Money is a woman’s only power in this world. Make it your solace and your dream and one day wealth, real lasting wealth will make you free.”

— Margaret Wells, Harlots (via brownstatuesquesugarbaby)

“And when she was hurt, oh man, she was brusque, she was the meanest and the most brutal one around. She pulled the knife out of her back, the knife they stabbed her with, then massacred them one by one.”

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High tea with my BFF 💞

me and my future husband

Vogue Paris 2008 February “Just Married”

my current struggle

Do you know how hard it is to concentrate on school work when you know you’re barely going to use the degree and your future most likely entails you on a yacht in Greece with an old man