Latest Posts by alizahawthorne - Page 7
december 2, 2024
i’ve finally figured out what makes my life meaningful. it’s the color of leaves right before they fall, the quiet bliss after a friend leaves, the cool rain falling on my skin as i dance, the warmth of the sun wrapping around my body, and the feeling when a plane just takes off and you feel weightless. these are the things that i live for between grief and love and acceptance.
december 1, 2024
it is now december, and i have been feeling this way since july. that i am an impostor in my own life.
november 30, 2024
i will mourn this november for the rest of my life. this november i fell out of love.
november 29, 2024
despite how hard i’ve wished and prayed you weren’t the one. you are. and i know i can never love you how you want me to.
november 28, 2024
i can’t shake this feeling that i will walk by the love of my life oblivious. that i will never be able to know him.
november 27, 2024
the days of my american dream drag on and on.
november 26, 2024
i swear it almost rained. i swear it almost washed out the whole world. i swear i almost gave up.
i pine for you for years on end
november 25, 2024
i am angry all the time.
november 24, 2024
someone asked me today what made me feel the most alive. and through tears i told them it was you.
november 23, 2024
i’d never been in a room so tense. then everyone came back broken.
november 22, 2024
the rage in me has made my humanity scarce. i will not be quiet about it.
november 21, 2024
i’m losing myself. can’t you tell?
november 20, 2024
i am so terribly sad. someone must be watching the movie of my life for a good cry.
november 19, 2024
i hope you find your soulmate in this lifetime. my knees are bruised from praying that it’s me.
november is so kind to me. it lets me sit in my own self pity for thirty days guilt free.
november 18, 2024
the taste of tragedy is so fresh on my tongue. i believe the aftertaste shall linger forever.
november 17, 2024
peace is white like my dress. i just wish my dress didn’t have those horrific blood stains.
november 16, 2024
for once, my mind is quiet.
i’ll convince myself it was mere gravity that pulled my lips to yours
november 15, 2024
i only feel love from my older friends. only they know how to handle the deep sadness that comes along with me.
november 14, 2024
i’m tied to your soul. and you’re tied to mine. i can see it in your eyes, when you speak to me. you look like a child again, but we happened at the wrong time.
november 13, 2024
happy birthday baby. even though you’re on the other side of the world. even though you hate me. happy birthday baby.
november 12, 2024
we were everything. everything.
november 11, 2024
you told me i was cruel. all i said was that you were the loss of my life. why would i lie to you? i don’t think i am capable of it.
november 10, 2024
the most tragic moment of my life, was realizing my own Cassandra complex. realizing no matter how many times i told people it wouldn’t work out, they wouldn’t believe me.
i can only dream that common people will understand my complicated metaphors
november 9, 2024
i read somewhere, that there is a day in the year that is always a catalyst. a day where you hit rock bottom for years on end. mine is november 9th.
november 8, 2024
why must i be so full of rage? i can only dream of peace.
november 7, 2024
i feel so terribly lost. and in that state i wrote only two sentences.