Latest Posts by alizahawthorne - Page 2
april 27, 2025
two years ago i worshipped the man i thought you were. thank god i am off my knees now.
april 26, 2025
one day i will have flowers waiting for me when i get home, and glances at dinner with his family, and good sex, and actually laugh at what he says, and i will trust him completely, and i will truly love him.
april 25, 2025
in march, time goes at a steady pace, but tomorrow it will be october and i will have not spoken to you since february and i will forget that i have ever spoken to you.
april 24, 2025
i hate big houses. with their empty space. i only have sadness to fill it.
april 23, 2025
i think i hate hospitals, and the stinky hand soap, and a nurse’s fake smile, and the overhead lighting, and the quiet doctors, and the cold tile floors, and the cheap tissues, and the bland food, and the way you’ll never be the same.
april 22, 2025
i’ll pray to every god, wish on every star, and do all the right things for you to live through the night.
april 21, 2025
no one has ever told me how similar grief is to falling in love. a numbness so absolute i can’t tell if i’m at the highest high or the lowest low.
april 20, 2025
the higher i rise above it, the more my cynics sharpen their knives.
april 19, 2025
i was a precocious child. it’s a curse.
april 18, 2025
if i showed you all my dark, im afraid you’d never be able to see my light again.
april 17, 2025
if you hurt me, i’ll walk away as easy as i walked in.
april 16, 2025
i am completely fine cleaning up my own mess.
april 15, 2025
i saw an entire life with you as soon as we met.
april 14, 2025
i could recognize your darkness a million miles away.
april 13, 2025
for the first time i am completely fine in my own.
april 12, 2025
i barely survived being everything but your lover.
april 11, 2025
i think the prophecy is wrong. there is no way the universe would torture me this humorously.
april 10, 2025
when you come home and hold me, my anger and rage is soothed, and i am not a mad woman, but i am your happy wife.
april 9, 2025
i miss you when i wake up, i miss you when im washing my hair, i miss you while i make breakfast, i miss you on the drive to work, i miss you while my boss drones on and on, i miss you while the birds chirp at lunch, i miss you when i get home, i miss you when i shower, i miss you when im in bed because you’re supposed to be there. but you’re not anymore.
april 8, 2025
i’m so proud of you.
april 7, 2025
everything is green again. like the earth is taking its first deep breath since the winter.
april 7, 2025
i’ve only ever seen a man as temporary. but with you, i can see my entire life fall perfectly into place.
april 6, 2025
i’m so sick of sadness.
april 5, 2025
you can just talk and i’ll listen to you for years.
april 4, 2025
you see me and i can see the biggest smile plastered on your face just from my presence.
april 3, 2025
i love you calmly, peacefully, and fully.
april 2, 2025
you come back into my life like a lifeline every time i’m falling for someone new.
april 1, 2025
the worst sadness i’ve ever felt was grieving you while you were still very much alive.
march 31, 2025
march’s last day feels far too unsettling. like the end of an era. the end of you.
march 30, 2025
i pine from a distance for once.