Me, Drunk, Coming Home In The Middle Of The Night, Feeling The Sudden Need To Cry Because Of This Dumb

me: *comes home from class and waits for the elevator*

random guy: *quietly says hi as i get in the elevator*

my brain: we know him

me: cool, who is he?

brain: no idea

me: but you just said-

brain: hey look, he's going to the same floor as you

me: oh yeah, maybe that's where i saw him

me: *gets out of the elevator and walks to my apartment only to realize the random guy lives in the apartment right in front of mine*

brain: oh funny, he's your neighbor

me: you bitch

looking at it now, all the posts about my crushes, cute boys at parties and sentimental delusions didn't age well lmao

and i mean i was just about to make a new one rn but i stopped myself bc i don't wanna get my hopes up again

getting closer to my ‘gray day’ and i keep pretending i’m ok when really i’m this close to burst into tears :’)

(’gray day’: posted a year ago)

i feel so ashamed, making a big deal out of it...

i just.. i don’t know, i just realized i was lying to myself, and now that the reality hit me in the face, i gotta accept it.

please, don’t pretend to care about it. you made a mistake? it’s fine. you try to make up for it with excessive kindness, it only feels fake and awkward.

he definitely made my day and i just can’t believe it’s real and i wonder what was going on in his head

My mood about the new tour ♪♪

wow my only support rn is my crush and i mean i'm still falling apart but i'm a bit happier and relieved

Character: What are you doing?

Me: Just thinking about what's gonna happen to you

Character: Tell me

Me: No you'll see later

Character: Fine

Character: *waits a long time*

Character: I DIDN'T WANT TO FALL IN LOVE DELETE THIS

Me: I like it

Character: I DON'T

Me: Ok so what do you want next?

Character: KILL ME, END MY SUFFERING

Me: I think it'll be nice if you have children

Character: DON'T-

Character: *has children*

Character:

Me: Perfect.

Character: Fuck you.

just lent money to a guy i didn't know and he said he'd get me a drink someday and he'll pay me back :)

(no worries i don't know him but he's friends with my friends so it's safe and he's a good guy)