A Blessing Yet A Curse To Be Someone Who Feels Everything So Deeply.

"You were always my dearest undoing, my sweetest punishment. I would choose death by a thousand cuts if they came from your blade. Lick my blood from my fingers and taste my devotion, my darling, while my lost soul kneels by your feet."

-words I can never say, pt 1

for valentine's day 🖤

the perfect pair

If one of us dies first, let it be me.

Let it be me so that I do not have to experience a world without you. I will not have to speak to people who do not know your name. I will not have to sit on the porch and try to hold on to the feeble wisps of memory carrying the scent of your hair and your sweet smile.

And when you come to meet me, we will make a home in hell or heaven, and I will whisper quiet apologies into your ears, one for every second that you had to live on without me.

Let us be buried together, and perhaps the flowers that grow over our graves will intertwine like my fingers with yours. Perhaps our shared memories will make the buds large and beautiful like your eyes, the petals buttery soft like my curls.

Perhaps the people who pluck them will feel the ache in my chest when you laugh.

If one of us dies first, let it be me, and then let us both never know a single moment without the other until the sun ceases to rise and forever loses its meaning.

oh, the places you'll go.

a list of places I want to travel to before I die

USA:

Alaska -

Arizona (Phoenix) - ✓ 2019

California (San Fran, San Diego, L.A.) - 

Colorado -

Florida (Orlando) - ✓ - 2020

Georgia (Atlanta) - 

Hawaii (Honolulu) - 

Kentucky (Louisville) - 

Louisiana (New Orleans) -

New York (NYC & Manhattan) - ✓ - 2018

Nevada (Las Vegas) -

Texas (Austin, Dallas, Houston) - 

Utah (Salt Lake City) - 

Washington (Seattle) - 

Washington D.C. - ✓ - 2017

Canada:

Banff - 

Toronto - ✓ - 2024

Mexico:

Cancún -

Mexico City -

Asia:

Japan (Tokyo, Kyoto, & Osaka) - ✓ - 2023

South Korea (Busan & Seoul) - 

Europe:

Austria (Vienna) - 

Denmark -

Finland -

France (Paris) - ✓ - 2022

Germany (Hamburg & Berlin) - ✓ - 2022

Greece (Athens, Santorini, Mykonos) -

Iceland (Reykjavík) -

Ireland (Dublin) -

Italy (Rome, Amalfi, & Venice) - 

Netherlands (Amsterdam) - 

Norway -

Scotland -

Sweden - 

Switzerland (Bern) - 

U.K. (London, Manchester, Birmingham) - 

South America:

Peru (Machu Picchu) -

Brazil (Rio de Janeiro) - 

Misc Islands:

Australia (Sydney) - 

New Zealand -

Bahamas - ✓ - 2024

Costa Rica - 

Fiji -

Jamaica - ✓ - 2024

Haiti - ✓ - 2024

Tahiti (Bora Bora) -

You didn’t just lose me—you lost access to a heart that would’ve burned the world just to keep you warm.

I wasn't meant for casual love. Your heartbeat will be my favorite song, your eyes my favorite color, your words my favorite poem, and even your imperfections will be my favorite piece of art.

some nights it feels like the stars shine just to remind me that everything is going to be okay

Virginia Woolf, from her novel titled "The Waves," originally published in 1931

NGC 6357, Celestial Cathedral

“If you have been brutally broken, but still have the courage to be gentle to others then you deserve a love deeper than the ocean itself.”

— Nikita Gill