Manifesting, Athena taking pity on me and making my brain work like it did last night at 23:00 throughout the exam.
A beautiful poem:
Surrounded by hobbits.
Boys stink.
Somebody help me
Before I throw them out the window
Here's my head canons that literally nobody asked for, but I don't care because I spent all of last summer thinking nobody was invested in the circle and I have pent-up fangirl energy π:
Robert is a fictional adult who needs some love: Is he one of the oldest? Yeah. But since he got abused by his dad and he felt like a disappointment for not being able to bear the runes (allergy) he's an insecure little bun, k? K. Also Maryse absolutely understands that, and although she's like super cold and icy and murderous she has a big heart (she's a silver girl, k?) and is always there for him at his lowest. Also, screw Shadowhunters and their smooth skin. Him and Alec? SCARS. That's it. Scars, actually, scars on all Shadowhunters, and also on Maryse, one that runs from the bottom of her ear, down her neck to her collarbone. How? (she's a Shadowhunter, ppl)
Maryse's mom was TRASH, and she has a fear of commitment: Why do I say that? IDK. I like characters with family issues (y'know Robert's got it w his dad, she as it w her mom). AND. She felt alone, which is how Valentine got to her. She was really close to her brother, and him getting stripped of his runes and exiled left her alone with parents that didn't care for her and too many close friends because of her cold (sarcastic queen) attitude. At the end of the day, she felt abandoned and, leaving her with a fear of getting close to anybody because they might leave her as well.
Miss ma'am passed her absolute need to perfect to Alec: If you've read TMI it's hard for people to not know that Alec is definitely the fake it til you make it, wake in the same shoes until you bleed and work on it until it glistens. So while I do firmly believe that he got some of Robert's personality, he did get his loyalty and bravery? From Maryse, all together with the constant urge of being perfect, which she got from her parents' constantly pushing her to be perfect and her need to prove the man in the academy that she deserved her place there.
Maryse and Robert might have been in love, they might not have known what that was: They both come from pretty toxic families where love was ehm...not a thing? So when they met, it was obvious that all these intense feelings of "I would kill for you" would get confused (maybe) for love. I do still that they fiercely loved each other like one loves its first partner. Deeply ad burning, that in their hearts, they were each other's other half. But I do also think that them insisting on staying when that love melted into pure raw platonic love (care? Do remember Maryse cried at his funeral and Michael's ghost touched her shoulder). Which brings me to my next point.
Michael and Maryse: Friends. That's it. The typical gay and bi power friendship.
Celine/ Maryse/ Michael: Trio of friends. Izzy/Jace/Alec but a cultist version of it.
Waywood?: Real. Maryse's relationship w Robert had faded into a pure friendship which lead to him realizing that he was in love w Michael (whether he acted on it or not, that idk)
Eliza and Maryse?: A thing. Hell yeah, she did act on it, which leads me to the belief that Maryse did know that Robert was in love with Michael and that he knew that she was in love with Eliza. Think of it, a lavender marriage out of fear of being stripped of their runes by the clave.
Ok, now hear me out. The kids by Charlotte Cardin is SO Lightwood family coded it might as well be their motto. There. I'll die on that hill.
We're holding on to Past grey lost blue And I hate you, you know Wish that we could control Our urges to hold Each other again But now I'm looking across Lines wrote and lost I can translate, you know Burnt before it was lit You found a lovely bad trip And you ruined us Oh, you wrecked us
Too bad for the kids downstairs The constant bad luck The place by the window
Still holding on We both know you're wrong But your face says all good You've always been such a runner Thought you'd leave me sooner But you're still down here With the girls and the kids And the poor and the ill And with me babe With the girls and the kids And the poor and the ill
Be so fr rn. This is THE Maryse and Robert song if there ever was one.
Eliza: I am calm, I am relaxed, I am a happy tree.
The circle: *being the circle*
Eliza: YOU ARE MAKING IT VERY HARD! TO BE A HAPPY TREE!
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Stephen: Ok, I need you to swear-
Celine: Fuck.
Stephen: Swear as in promise.
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Michael, about Valentine: Have you ever looked at an authority figure in your life and thought, "Wow, I respect a well-grilled hot dog more than I respect you?" ββββββββββββββββ Lucian: Your friends are counting on you! Valentine: Well that's their falt. I've carefully cultivated a persona that screams, "You're on your own!" ββββββββββββββββ
Robert: What the hell are you smiling for?
Valentine: Am I not allowed to be happy?
Amatis: Of course you areβ¦ itβs just that you being happy, usually means someoneβs lost their lifeβ¦ or a limb.
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Celine, first joining: I know we technically have permission to do this, but this all feels highly illegal.
Stephen: Thatβs half the fun of it.
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Stephen: People say I have a unique way of lighting up a room.
Amatis: Itβs called arson and those people are witnesses.
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Celine: Robert and I are getting closer. The other day he gave me half his sandwich.
Robert, whispering to Maryse: I mistook her for a garbage can
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Robert: I tried to write βIβm a functional adultβ but my phone changed it to βfictional adultβ and I feel thatβs more accurate.
my toxic trait is thinking i would be immune to valentine's manipulation tactics and able to see through his bullshit and not be brainwashed into joining his cult
i know full well the guy would be able to clock my trauma from a 10 meter radius and he would exploit the fuck out of it but a girl can dream
wanna know what stuck with me more than janus wanting clary back? the fact that he wanted alec just as much. in every universe, doesn't matter if he's the good hearted jace we know or if he's dark or if he's evil, his heart knows alec is his parabatai. we should talk more about these two
Remembering 10 year old me had an attachment to her principal because she was nice and warm and treated her like a daughter when her mom wasn't and I feel nostalgic. Then I remember I started crying in her office when she told me that she was proud of me and I feel like crawling in a hole.
Just realized I haven't talked about tsc in a whole day. I'm so disappointed in myself. Does that mean...? Spamming my account with posts about it? YES.
GIRL. Don't blame meeeeeee u said you liked spoilers ππ
@somedamslytherindemigod2 just started reading the last hours. A round of applause for her and her noticing heronstairs in the first page.
Just a writer who loves too many fandoms. But who can blame me? I'm a sucker for art, classic and for charachters with a bow that have as many issues as me, 'cause what is life if you don't have a hoard of suffering archers behind u? My main fandoms are TMI (the mortal instruments), TDA, TLH and any artwork created by my one and only Queen Cassie, LOTR, Dune, Percy Jackson, The Dragon Prince bcs I would die for Ruthari, Brooklyn 99, ACOTAR, Iron Flame, TVD, GG (xoxo), and any form of classics (Razumikhin's, Raskolnikov's and Holden's love child) and probably many more fandoms that I can't remember rn but will once I close this.All hail Lana del Rey, KoL, The Smiths, Fiona Apple , TV girl, Marina and all my underrated bby's who should be at the top.xoxo
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