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unfortunately for the both of us, i really like you

thinking abt kms 24/7 just to not be able to do it for a girl i love

god i wanna kms so badly but i know how much itd hurt her, ik how upset she’d get, how it would crush her world and ruin her life and id do fucking, literally fucking anything for that girl, literally anything, she asks me to not kms, she asks me to stay and its not just her asking me to, she makes me wanna try and fight too, i just, i get so tired and when i get tired i have no energy to fight, i have no energy to push it away or let go of it, i give in, im tired

im so tired, im so ready to give in again and attempt again, i literally just did last monday, i freaked out i had to have her tell me to stop so i didnt actually kms, i wish i wouldve at least sent myself to the hospital from the damage but im not even good enough for that

i cant help but think that my attempts are good enough because i never sent myself to the hospital i always had the power to stop myself but what the fuck does that make me? a fucking big ass pussy, a faker, a fraud

god, just, fucking kill me please im so so tired

“I was looked at, but I wasn’t seen.”

-Albert Camus, “The Misunderstanding.”

when an entire team of scientists kept chuuya trapped in their lab to experiment on him. when the sheep used chuuya as a weapon and means of protection. when dazai wanted chuuya to be his dog. when he wanted chuuya to be his maid. when rimbaud attempted to turn chuuyas dead body into a puppet to use it as a weapon. when mori had chuuya swear his undying loyalty to him after making sure he had no one else to turn to. when verlaine tried to kill every person who chuuya had an attachment to so he could make chuuya rely on solely him. when professor N brought chuuya back into the lab to continue his experiments. when fyodor had chuuya turned into a mindless vampire to get him on his side. the innate bsd character urge to own chuuya

Reblog this for suicide prevention.

kingdom hearts is like, people suffer a lot and oh hey look Mickey Mouse is here

Martins Architecture Office - Zebros farm renovation, Felgueiras 2021. Photos © NUDO.

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