Some shifters may shift from this reality to the future or past. And, there are people who have already returned to the past and continue to live until they reach the present.
Time essentially does not exist, and it is a kind of side effect that existence/consciousness experiences as it passes the frame to the next scene. And, in the case of a shared reality, each being/consciousness precisely emulates each other's avatars and personalities, creating an optical illusion as if they are interacting together. And although each being/consciousness appears to be in the same time zone and the same reality, in reality, the time zone is different and the realities are slightly different. These minor differences can be seen in the stories of people with different memories due to the Mandela effect.
So, going back to the beginning, if you were to experience another alternate reality and come back to this one, nothing would change. However, other consciousnesses/beings who share this common reality will continue to experience moving to the next time frame while you experience other alternate realities.
So, it is said that extraterrestrial races of 4th density or higher, who can freely change reality, freely choose their own time zone for a certain time range, such as 10 years, and then move on to the next 10-year range.
Think of this reality as a VR game, and think of time as a sort of selectable theme. It will be easier to understand if you think of it as a theme such as ancient, medieval, and modern times. And, imagine having your avatar accurately simulated and reflected in your own reality. Then, we can solve the problem of time travel.
Yes, it is possible. I saw an interview with a shifter who has been shifting for tens of thousands of years on Amino. In his interview, he said that he tried to bring objects from other realities into this reality. He would concentrate and think that he had the object he remembered in this reality, and the object he had in mind would appear in his hand.
However, there were some limitations, such as not being able to bring objects back exactly the same. For example, objects created in worlds with incompatible physics would have a similar appearance, but the function or behavior of the object would change to fit this reality.
I have also seen several shifters experiment with bringing objects back, some with failure, some with success.
You can find an interview on this interesting topic here:
it may seem controversial to say this, because isnโt the point of manifesting to change the 3D?
well, no. this viewpoint is easily adapted in this community, because thatโs what makes manifesting so attractive. you can finally take control of everything in the 3D. but this is a mindset that hinders your manifestation process and is actually one of the main causes of โfailureโ.
why should you remove this idea?
by approaching manifesting as โtrying to make something happenโ or โtrying to manipulate the world, so you can have more controlโ you are actually telling yourself that you arenโt in control. youโre pressuring yourself to control everything, youโre trying too hard to be in control. you shouldnโt be โtrying to be in controlโ, you already are in control and you should relax. leave the outer-world alone entirely.
the only way you can make anything change is within. when you desire something, imagine your desire, feel that itโs yours and let it be. thereโs no need to do anything else. youโve accomplished it within you and therefore it is done. thereโs no need to check the 3D to see if โitโs come yetโ. itโs yours already, accept it within. the outer-world will inevitably reflect your inner-state, thereโs no need to worry about it.
the mindset to take on instead:
you should see your problems and desires much smaller than you. because they are. theyโre nothing compared to you. remove your desires and problems from the pedestal, nothing is greater than you. realise that whenever you feel something you donโt want to feel, that you are the one making yourself react that way. you donโt have to react that way, raise yourself above any fears.
your desires are simple goals easily achievable within you. imagine them, feel them and move on.
The true metaphysical student shines when he no longer depends on world without for his moods. He no longer looks control the outside and by this he controls it. - Edward Art
"robotic affirmation creates new neural pathways in your brain and those new neural pathways will create the new future that you are trying to manifest."
Can you expand more onto this please.
When you repeatedly think, say, or do something, you're strengthening neural pathways in your brain. These pathways are like highways that connect different areas of your brain. The more you use it, the stronger and more efficient it becomes.
It can also form habits. When you repeatedly engage in a behavior, your brain eventually creates a neural pathway that makes it easier to perform that behavior in the future. That's why you feel and act different when you start affirming for self concept or confidence or a desired appearance. You become the person who has those desires.
Your subconscious mind is also responsible for your beliefs and attitudes. By repeatedly thinking or saying positive affirmations, you can reprogram your subconscious mind to believe in yourself and your goals, becoming the person with the beliefs that match your desires.
Happy manifesting โค๏ธ
it may seem controversial to say this, because isnโt the point of manifesting to change the 3D?
well, no. this viewpoint is easily adapted in this community, because thatโs what makes manifesting so attractive. you can finally take control of everything in the 3D. but this is a mindset that hinders your manifestation process and is actually one of the main causes of โfailureโ.
why should you remove this idea?
by approaching manifesting as โtrying to make something happenโ or โtrying to manipulate the world, so you can have more controlโ you are actually telling yourself that you arenโt in control. youโre pressuring yourself to control everything, youโre trying too hard to be in control. you shouldnโt be โtrying to be in controlโ, you already are in control and you should relax. leave the outer-world alone entirely.
the only way you can make anything change is within. when you desire something, imagine your desire, feel that itโs yours and let it be. thereโs no need to do anything else. youโve accomplished it within you and therefore it is done. thereโs no need to check the 3D to see if โitโs come yetโ. itโs yours already, accept it within. the outer-world will inevitably reflect your inner-state, thereโs no need to worry about it.
the mindset to take on instead:
you should see your problems and desires much smaller than you. because they are. theyโre nothing compared to you. remove your desires and problems from the pedestal, nothing is greater than you. realise that whenever you feel something you donโt want to feel, that you are the one making yourself react that way. you donโt have to react that way, raise yourself above any fears.
your desires are simple goals easily achievable within you. imagine them, feel them and move on.
The true metaphysical student shines when he no longer depends on world without for his moods. He no longer looks control the outside and by this he controls it. - Edward Art
emotions are irrelevant.
i have a hot take.
i find it very hypocritical when loa influencers tell you is what you accept (decide) to be true that manifests your state, but proceed to put โfeeling goodโ on a pedestal immediately afterwards djdnskbs
you tell me that the only way to apply properly is if i return to my desired states since feeling is knowing not emotion one second, but immediately tell me to imagine a scene or affirmation so i can โfeel goodโ, which is it? the reason why iโm so against this is because itโs not NATURAL. YOU DONT ALWAYS FEEL AN EMOTION AFTER MAKING A DECISION!!! why are we making unnatural things a normalized part of the law of assumption, itโs ridiculous.
a change in Self is a decision. you decide that you are or have something because you want to. thatโs it. youโve always done this. with the negative stuff, youโve done it because you felt like you โhad toโ. now the scripts flipped! you can decide what you WANT! you donโt have to wait for the 3d to conform or to feel an emotion. you can just do it!
like whyyyyy do we have to be so strict with the law, man. this shits too easy.
if you want a straight forward, direct way on how to โmanifestโ, here you go:
1. decide what you state you want to be in
2. thatโs it.
3. to persist, repeat step one.
the end thatโs how you manifest. you persist because you WANT that state. you want to BE in that state, despite what youโre feeling or seeing. you choose that state because you want to, and you do it over and over again and it eventually becomes your new habitual state.
โwell jay my fav blogger told me that feeling emotions is how you get things fasterโ
your fav blogger doesnโt understand the law LMAOOOO hate to break it to you. iโm so sorry but someone with an understanding on how this works will not push that so hard unless theyโre telling you that itโs the only way you can switch a state.
also, when will you understand that imagination is the only reality and whatever you decide to be within it is what youโll experience, despite how you feel :)
itโs not about โmaking stuff happen fasterโ itโs about being who you WANT. youโll be that person in imagination when your 3d expresses, anyway. so what are you waiting for? lol.
listen i really want some of these loa bloggers to figure out what they want to preach because letโs be honestโฆiโm not gonna jump for joy the second iโm feeling something iโm not used to. no one does. so telling ppl to persist to โfeel good experiencing itโ is terrible advice. because people donโt operate the same way. you may or not feel emotions when you return to a desired state, we know this already. we didnโt have to โfeel emotionsโ when we persisted in the wrong things. persist because you want to go back to that state, not because you want to feel euphoric or whatever.
โbut how to do i fall in love with imaginaโโ
by choosing what you want to be repeatedly. lol. you make it enjoyable. you donโt have to literally fail in love with what you think is imagining. itโs about choosing what make you happy.
as long as you accept what you WANT, youโll be fine. you can be anxious and know youโre with your sp. youโll live if you donโt feel like youโre madly in love with them the second you accept that, i promise. lol.
ok rant over hope this helped byeeeee ๐ค๐ค๐ค๐ค
hey :) Hope you are doing well!!
I have just entered into loass and manifested small things but I have so much resistance in manifesting my celeb sp. like I want to manifest my dream relationship, career etc but sometimes things feel so out of reach..
any tips?
Thank you so much ๐ซถ๐ผ๐
Hello and welcome to the community!
First thing you have to understand is that all manifestations are the same. Nothing is too big or too small to manifest. Manifesting a dollar or a chocolate bar is the same as manifesting your dream career or you celebrity SP.
So now what?
Simple really, decide what you want, and know that you have it.
Pick your manifestations, choose your methods, persist in the knowledge that your already have it, and do not acknowledge circumstances whatsoever.
(Methods include: robotic affirmations, scripting, visualizing, listening to subliminals, making lists.)
Affirm, persist, receive.
(btw, an SP is and SP, doesn't matter if they're famous or not! They are still just a person)
Happy manifesting โค๏ธ
I'm introducing a new book about transurfing. It's about connecting with your higher self. You don't have to manipulate or control reality one by one, just connect with your higher self and you can enjoy all the benefits. For example, healing from trauma, supernatural abilities, spiritual awakening, etc.
I have translated and shared the relevant information for you below.
TRANSSURFING YOURSELF
Dear readers. The VES publishing house has released a new book, โTransurfing Yourself.โ
ANNOTATION
We have identified ourselves with our body and mind, our avatar. But we are something more than we are accustomed to thinking. This is our Spirit, which is always next to us โ behind us and above us.
Now, in the New Time, a technique has been discovered that is accessible to the average, โunadvancedโ person, for contacting oneโs Spirit and entering what we call the <state of the Spirit>. That is, it has become known how to specifically implement this.
By connecting with your original source, you gain the POWER OF THE SPIRIT, with all the accompanying attributes:
the ability to control yourself and your reality;
act effectively in difficult situations;
heal yourself from physical and mental ailments;
get rid of destructive programs and complexes;
program yourself for renewal, regeneration, evolution;
find your mission, your realization in this life;
and much more.
WHAT IS THE BOOK ABOUT
Since December 22, 2020, we have entered the New Time. The dark era of Pisces has given way to the dawn of the era of Aquarius, and now we are experiencing the Transition to the New Reality. In the New Time, a window of opportunity has opened - to control what is inside and what is outside - your body and your reality. We could do it before, but now this ability has grown significantly.
At the same time, the wall of obstacles that we create for ourselves, our "battle" with the current reality, as well as with ourselves, has also grown.
In order to use new abilities, you need to learn to wake up in a waking dream. For example, as soon as something annoys you or something goes wrong - wake up and see where and in what you have overestimated importance, and deliberately reset it. Remove these mountains of yours and calmly walk along the plain.
And then - to set your reality, also, right now, to a greater extent, not even the intention, but the state works.
You receive only what you correspond to. For example, if the state in which you are does not correspond to wealth and prosperity, you will not receive it. This means that you must be able to manage not only reality as a dream in reality, but also yourself, your state.
And in order to achieve all this, you need to do something with yourself. Therefore, if before there was "Reality Transurfing", now you need "Transurfing Yourself". The technique of entering the state of the Spirit allows you to finally master yourself.
WHY IS THE BOOK WORTH READING
Many are familiar with the practices of lucid dreaming. But for some reason very few places talk about lucid dreaming in reality. In reality, we wake up as a person, as one of our incarnations in this life. But what about waking up in what stands above all these incarnations - in your higher Self?
In a dream, the starting (support) point is known - this is reality, from where we "fell asleep" here and where we can return. In reality - it is unknown. We do not remember from which past life we โโgot into this life.
But if you learn to go to your "zero point", to the point of your Spirit, then you can find support for awakening in reality, as well as for self-control. The point of the Spirit is the starting point to which you can return from a dream in reality. Therefore, awakening in the Spirit is the highest degree of awakening.
Each of us can admit that in everyday life we โโact on a semi-automatic, on autopilot. In a dream, I have the consciousness of a character - it is like a bot when I sleep in reality. When I wake up, it becomes mine, alive.
From the state of the Spirit, I observe the action and at the same time participate in it. I observe from some point behind and above โ from where my own consciousness is located, and not the โcharacterโsโ.
In conditions where it is not the intention that works more strongly, but the state, I can enter the state of the Spirit as the Owner of my avatar and my life, and from this state act freely and strongly. Turn off the mode of the restless mind (bot) and go into the mode of awareness. And not even think, but act from the state of the Spirit. Live from the state of the Spirit.
WHO IS THIS BOOK FOR
For everyone who wants to reach a truly new level of SELF. Setting the desired reality is not so difficult. The most difficult thing is to RISE FROM A WAKEFUL SLEEP. The task of waking up, remembering yourself and erasing your problems is not an easy task. But the solutions will be radical, so everything will work out.
Those who tried it have already succeeded. New techniques were published on social networks and tested by real people. There were a lot of reviews. They are included in the book and serve as real confirmation of everything written.
And of course, the reviews of the pioneers are not only confirmation, but also inspiration for future readers. Like, for example, this one:
โI can change my reality, I can do everything, I have recognized WHO I AM.โ
WHY DECIDED TO PUBLISH
The book can be considered an encyclopedia of self-development. The proposed technique of AWAKENING IN THE SPIRIT is the most powerful tool for self-development and self-realization.
In addition, under the conditions of the Transition, a unique window of opportunity has opened, when degradation and aging of the body can be turned into regeneration and even evolution. The body knows that this has become possible, and it really wants it. It only needs help. The sleeping part of DNA, which is now awakening, will contribute to this.
So the GOAL in the book is set radically: NOT SENILE LONGEVITY, BUT REGENERATION. The goal is not for the elderly, but for everyone who wants it.
To activate this process, something else is needed, not the generally accepted healthy lifestyle:
Cleansing the body and mind.
Clean and effective nutrition.
Tuning in with new energies.
Diverse and effective movement.
An unwavering attitude towards rebirth and development.
The book contains everything you need for this.
BACK COVER
Since December 22, 2020, we have entered the New Time and are now experiencing the Transition to the New Reality. In the New Time, a technique for contacting one's Spirit and entering what we call the <state of the Spirit> has become accessible to the average, "unadvanced" person. That is, it has become known how to specifically implement this.
WHAT THE STATE OF THE SPIRIT GIVES
Self-control increases, the Power of the Spirit awakens. Unity with the Universal consciousness, salvation from loneliness. Concentration of attention, the thought-mixer stops. Intuition increases, you can make difficult decisions. Act decisively and boldly from the state of the Spirit. The Force is connected, you connect to the Force. A feeling of <I can do anything> appears. True awakening and return to your true Self. Cleansing from negative thoughts, programs and complexes. Your mood improves, apathy goes away. People around you start to feel sympathy for you.
You will learn what is required for this. This is what the whole book is about.
The book is already available on the main marketplaces. Search by request "zeland transurfing yourself", otherwise you may not find it.
I think I understand how the erroneous idea of each of us having "separate universes" began. It's a direct result of misunderstanding these two statements:
๐ฏ"There is no lack in the world"
๐ฏ"You can have anything you want."
There is no lack in the world as far as love, abundance, wealth, etc, and these can manifest in any number of ways that are perfect for you.
But there IS only one Hope Diamond, along with many other rare items millions of people would like to own. There sometimes IS only one candidate who will get a job that ten loa practitioners want. How do they reconcile those facts with the ideas above? Well, rather than accept that any person can't have a specific thing that they want, they created a whole new theory to get around that fact: that everyone can have anything they want in their "own universe."
People used to trust the greater aspect of God to give them what they really need and want. You'd often hear that someone thought they wanted something specific and prayed fervently for it, but their lives took a totally different turn and they received something ๐ท๐ข๐ด๐ต๐ญ๐บ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ต๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ than what they asked for! For example, when people say they want a certain job, what they really want is a job that is perfect for them; one that is fulfilling, suits their schedule, pays well, etc. THAT is what is going to manifest. It wasn't a failure on their part if they didn't get a specific position - it means it wasn't the right one for them. Instead, the Universe delivered to them the RIGHT thing based on what they really wanted.
Similarly, when someone wants an SP, what they REALLY want is a relationship with someone who loves them. They want romance, excitement, and perhaps someone to grow old with. Well, your SP isn't necessarily that person just because you want them (as many divorced people have found), and they ARE just one person! Imagine how many loa practitioners are currently trying to manifest...umm...(insert name of whatever celebrity everyone is crazy about these days.) They can't all have them, and each one is going to see it as a failure when they inevitably don't end up with them. So why not skip the frustration and realize the truth: that you're really desirous of a good relationship, and let the Universe arrange it with whoever is perfect for you?
H. Emilie Cady, one of my favorite loa authors, addressed this immensely important point below in her book "Lessons in Truth." The italics are mine.
"Someone asks: 'Suppose I desire my neighbor's wife, or his property; is that desire born of God? And can I see it fulfilled by affirming that it is mine?'
You do not and cannot, by any possibility, desire that which belongs to another. You do not desire your neighbor's wife. ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ด๐ช๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ด ๐ต๐ฐ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐บ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ณ'๐ด ๐ธ๐ช๐ง๐ฆ. ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ด๐ช๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ง๐ช๐ญ๐ญ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ๐ต'๐ด ๐ค๐ณ๐ข๐ท๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ. Affirm that there is for you a rightful and an overflowing supply, and claim its manifestation. It will surely come, and your so-called desire to possess your neighbor's wife will suddenly disappear.
So you do not in reality desire anything that belongs to your neighbor. ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ฒ๐ถ๐ช๐ท๐ข๐ญ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ช๐ค๐ฉ ๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ฑ๐ฐ๐ด๐ด๐ฆ๐ด๐ด๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ด ๐ด๐ต๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ. ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ฐ๐ธ๐ฏ. ๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ด ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฅ๐ข๐บ ๐ข๐ฏ ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ญ๐ช๐ฎ๐ช๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ด๐ถ๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐จ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฅ ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ท๐ช๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ ๐ฉ๐ถ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฏ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ. ๐๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฏ ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฅ๐ด ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฎ๐ข๐บ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ. ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ ๐ฐ๐ธ๐ฏ ๐ข๐ธ๐ข๐ช๐ต๐ด ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ. ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ด๐ต๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ง๐ข๐ช๐ต๐ฉ, ๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ต๐ณ๐ถ๐ด๐ต, ๐ช๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฑ๐ฐ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ธ๐ช๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฃ๐ณ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ช๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ."
In summary: The statements "There is no lack" and "I can have anything I desire" actually mean that there's an abundance of love and prosperity for all, and will manifest as the things which are right for you and will bring you the feelings of comfort and security you truly desire. Knowing this, there's no need to do mental gymnastics to make oneself believe in things like "individual universes" in which we're all dating the same celebrity so-and-so. We know we're not. Let's instead accept the ๐ณ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต thing for us, which the Godhead is more than capable of discerning and delivering! ๐ค
To let go is to trust.
What exactly is letting go in manifestation? Now I'm not saying that you need to let go to manifest, you absolutely don't have to because your reality your rules. I'm writing this for the people who want to understand what it is, and hopefully help someone in the process. If you're sick of methods and robotic affirmations/affirmations, this could be for you too.
Picture this.
A toddler is learning how to walk. They are being held by their caregivers and is putting their left foot down and ahead of the other followed by their right foot and the cycle repeats. At first they are wobbly so they require more support from their caregivers and effort from themselves. But as time goes by, they become more and more proficient at walking and it becomes like second nature to them. They no longer need to be held by their caregivers.
When we first started out learning about LOA/shifting, we had the mindset of a toddler. We needed to do research (like the toddler's effort), we needed to feel supported, we wanted validation from others that what we're doing is right (like being held by caregivers). This is but indeed very human nature as we want to feel like we're on the right track by seeking reassurance from others.
However, just like the toddler, there comes a point where we no longer need to be held by our caregivers. We no longer need to do further research because we already know enough. We don't have to be laser-beamed focused on what foot to put in front, at which direction and at what angle because we now know how to walk. We don't need to seek approval or validation from others whether if its correct to place my right foot first before the left foot or vice versa. There is literally NO right or wrong way to walk. Similarly, there is literally no right or wrong way to manifest. Manifesting is limitless. There are no rules. There is no need to seek approval or validation from others in the first place because the validation is always coming from YOU. Nobody can validate yourself except for you.
So no, when we talk about letting go, we are NOT talking about letting go of your desires. What we're talking about is letting go of that death grip that you have on the approval/validation from others, ruminating over and over again as to whether you have done everything right, trying out every new method/routine that you come across in HOPES that it can help achieve your desires.
Babes, what are you doing? You already HAVE you desires. Why else would you have a desire? Your desires don't just appear out of thin air. They are YOUR desires because they are YOURS (now read that again). You just need to TRUST yourself like how the toddler trusts their own body (in this case your consciousness) that they KNOW what to do. Weโre literally shifting all the time. It is second nature to us.
The toddler isn't doing 123456789 methods to make sure they are walking right. They don't have to! They already are. Similarly, you don't have to inspect every single detail and analyze whether you're doing things correctly and or whether if you're affirming enough. You don't even need methods. You exist. And that's enough. That's the KEY to manifesting. Let me remind you once again that whatever it is that you desire means NOTHING if you do not exist.
So, let go. Let go on that death grip that you have on the "what if" I'm not doing enough, what if I'm doing anything wrong, what if this method isn't for me, what if that method is better etc etc. All you need is yourself. You do not need to be held by your caregivers no longer. You can walk now, run even. Just think about the toddler whenever you second-guess yourself. You are already walking. It is done.