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Sometimes I feel like I’m being a chaser

Then I remember I’m trans

We can fall in love, for a time.

ingrid sundberg's colour dictionary - writing help

my girl when..

“She says nothing at all, but simply stares upward into the dark sky and watches, with sad eyes, the slow dance of the infinite stars.”

— Neil Gaiman, Stardust

RITSUKA!!!!!!

Quick sketch

“There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.”

— Shakespeare

“When fate gives you a fresh new chance to fall in love again, she will give you two simple rules: To practice the art of being soft and to be grateful.”

— Juansen Dizon, Healing The Wounded Heart

kaedehara kazuha and the bad bitch he pulled by fighting his mom

felt

My theme seems way too colourful for someone who dominates men

Fuck I need me a femboy 😞

Looks like someone got a visit from the autism fairy

this is the funniest way to point out a new interest

really crazy how much i’ve imagined this fic. like it’s soooooo imagined you wouldn’t even believe. not writing it though

yes

I don’t think anyone talks about how cool DPD can be when your alter is your best friend.

Imagine having your best friend with you whenever you want it, wherever you want. Literally just a constant emotional support supply!

if nobody got me i know he got me! shoutout to my man!

me, reading my own wips: oh my gosh no ways. that's so good. what happens next though????

My friend's boyfriend said "Merlin based five seasons on the sexual tension between Bradley James and Colin Morgan" and I felt that.

i am infected with the kind of sadness only Kafka would understand.

top five men?

like in a row? or do i get breaks

the siblings

kaveh: *sighs*

alhaitahm: you bored?

kaveh: yeah.

alhaitham: wanna start drama for no reason?

kaveh: i thought you’d never ask.

brought to you by @bindigoat s HMC fixation of April 2021

thinking about this

Genshin Impact Fashion: Anemo Edition ☁️💙

drunk confession

Strong boy

he’s just like me fr

I’m not sure if there is already an answer to this. But do you think Uenoyama has like a hero complex or something? Why does he feel responsible for Mafuyu’s moods? I get that we don’t want to see our loved ones be sad but to feel like we are somewhat responsible is kinda a bit much

Hello! I'm back! Short answer, not really. Hero's complex is saving someone or a situation because it is a self-ego boost, where the individual does something "good" in order to receive some recognition or validation. Uenoyama isn't like that at all, especially in the first arc, he fixes strings for Mafuyu not because he desperately needs Mafuyu to be happy or to sing, but he wanted to connect with Mafuyu, to understand truly where he is coming from, and to apologise properly. When Mafuyu was eventually able to sing, he is SOOO SURPRISED and PROUD OF Mafuyu. Even when afterwards he visits Mafuyu and then gets asked out by Mafuyu, he doesn't expects it or demands it from Mafuyu, he just genuinely cares for him.

If Uenoyama has a hero's complex, Uenoyama would have been feeling like he must heal Mafuyu in order to give his band a chance at performing well at the live. Or in the most recent chapters, the manga would literally have Ue say something like "Mafuyu is stunting the band's success and I need to get him back on track so that he can thank me for making him happy." Uenoyama is none of that, he just wants to connect with Mafuyu through music, the result is something he hopes for but not that something he feels entitled to gain for doing something good.

However I will say that he has some codependency issues. He internalises Mafuyu's sadness as his own. You're definitely right that it's a bit too much but hero's complex is different from codependency in that one is doing "morally good deeds" for a selfish reason while the latter is an unhealthy selflessness by compromising one's own needs and feelings (i.e. staying up all night to write the demo, neglecting sleep, some obsessive thought patterns etc.)

love them forever and ever

I hope fandom atleast noticed that during 'umi e' Mafuyu was actually drowning metaphorically and had to think of Ritsuka's face in Minato Mirai to try to keep himself grounded

(I think Ritsuka's voice helped him at last). And he started being lively only after 'umi e' ended and they played another song.

'umi e' wasn't something Mafuyu wanted or requested for. He was thrown into it. While already having an emotional crisis because things were reminding him too much of his past which he would've rather forgotten.

The memories were what he was thrown into! He was trying to fight them, find his bearing. He had to look away from it to look at the memory of Ritsuka's face when he confessed to Ritsuka, he was trying to cling to Ritsuka's memory to keep himself grounded. He was so brave and looking for Ritsuka to anchor him.

But it wasn't enough. See he was drowning still!

And then Ritsuka started singing.

Ritsuka saved him. Ritsuka's voice brought him back from a nasty panic attack, brought him back from giving up, because he could recognise the kindness, the love, however misguided.

Also if I may point it out, before Ritsuka started singing, no one even understood that it was indeed a love song! Mafuyu was drowning in grief, NOT in love.

Ritsuka's voice was what brought the love out. Because Ritsuka himself was the source of the love. And pulled Mafuyu out of 'the sea'.

Illustration from The Rime of the Ancient Mariner by Willy Pogany (1910)

Mafuyu and Ritsuka's relationship is like it's my relationship, something happens between them I overthink more than them.