Acoustov - Acoustov

I rewatched hbomberguys anti vaxx video recently and it’s insane how closely parent hysteria over autism mirrors hysteria over “rapid onset gender dysphoria.” in both contexts the emphasis is on the parents watching their children for signs of deviation from normative expectations - the assumption is that children have no interiority of their own, no ability to assert their own identities, and any evidence of their individual personhood (such as being neurodivergent or transgender) is only “real” once parents take notice. the concept of “rapid onset gender dysphoria” assumes this position - it’s only “rapid” to the parents, who either uncover evidence of their kid being trans without the child’s consent (such as scrolling through their phone or going through their things) or when their child discloses their identity to the parents (which generally means they’ve been thinking about it for a while and have been keeping it secret until they felt it appropriate to tell their parents). By the same token, “evidence of autism” is assumed to be sudden, a singular event where children progress from not autistic -> suddenly autistic, only becoming real once the parents finally notice. it’s like all children exist in a quantum state where their only “real” identities are the ones observed and reported by parents - the traits of children are only ever legitimate if a parent says so. In both cases there is an intense fixation on rooting out “aberrant” qualities, and in both cases these qualities are highly pathologised, conferring onto parents the authority of medical institutions to further restrict and control the behaviour of their children. Such conceptions of neurodivergence and gender are predicated on kids being the full property of their parents, who simply monitor and manage their various “conditions,” always vigilant for signs that their child is degenerate, mentally ill, or dysfunctional in some way

side note when putting tags in this thing why did "#bimbo training" come up first when i typed train.

loud children on train i wish you a merry please shut the fuck up

Here is your mission.

i love this app because you can just not tag a post and no one will probably see it.

this, therefore, means i can scream into the void about things and not have to worry about dreaded Repercussions.

white women on bluesky are talking far too much about taylor swift ending her tour. i get that it's the demographic and clearly the music means at least something to these people. i, on the other hand, do not want to hear about the music industry's billionaire AVGAS waster.

like i have no issue with artists utilising a privately-owned plane. just not a small one.

look at iron maiden, a band that i'm not really a fan of anymore. bruce dickinson flies a fucking 747 to carry the band and its equipment around. the livery is also sick as fuck.

if i was a billionaire musician, i would not be in learjets or dassaults. i would be actively the An225 so i could try to reverse engineer and hire a company to build it. shit would be sick.

tl;dr i dont wanna hear about taylor swift cus she's boring and it's broadly unethical to be a billionaire.

Sleep - Marijuanaut's Theme

dear all people sending me go fund me links. you won't read this, but i am a broke musician. if i had the money i would, but i've gotta eat

god i hope this becomes more standard i want to feel like a detective in a cyberpunk dystopia walking home absolutely wankered at 3 am

perhaps some will disagree, but i think the world got worse when we changed the colour of the night

the problem with this is that i have issues, mainly with alcohol, that really do not help in these scenarios. so it's either i go sober for a month or two and work on myself, or i get drunk about it. i know what's easier (and more fun) but i did that the last couple of times, and it's not great.

so i guess i'm in a love triangle? gonna kms, will probably rb with elaboration later

going back to my previous rb, i usually want to be supportive of my friends, and help them in any way i can. but it's killing me this time around. it's rare that i act purely out of self interest, or even admit stuff like this to other people. it's not that i have a hard time opening up to people necessarily, it's just that admitting to someone about my feelings isn't something i like to do.

and at the same time, it seems easier to just let the two get together. it's hard, and i really don't want to just sit by, but i really cannot tell if he'd be into me at all as anything more than just friends. i also really do not want to ruin the friendship that we have, but the crush is very, very strong.

obviously, considering how much i'm writing on about this it's quite clear that the feelings have been happening again.

so i guess i'm in a love triangle? gonna kms, will probably rb with elaboration later

update on the performance w jamiroquai's bassist (paul turner), it went really well on my end... aside from mentioning stuart zender