I Didn’t Realise How Much I Would Love Sixth Form At A College Especially At One Where I Didn’t Think

Mmmmm cider and pizza

A healthy Saturday night dinner

I really like the word “smitten”. because at first glance you just think of sappy lovey-dovey stuff but also you have to remember this is a word that’s born of the word “smite.” a devastating word. a word that, summarized, means stricken. smitten means stricken as well — struck with devastating affection.

okay i should stop im over dramatic

i hate time

it only moves slow when i actually want something to happen

its been less than 20 minutes since i messaged this guy and it feels like its been half an hour wtf

bitches be dedicating their entire life to the dark academia aesthetic in terms of clothing and interests

i’m bitches

in my ‘dramatic love’ era rn

but in all seriousness

im kinda seeing someone rn and im so deliriously happy to even just message them

i havent actually liked someone this much in a long time or ever really

its just so easy to be around them and i feel comfortable around them which doesnt happen to me often and i dont mind being more openly affectionate with them either which is crazy bc i never thought id feel like i could do that with someone

i have finally fallen back in love with reading again after like a 2 year reading drought

i think the sweetest thing someones ever done for me is when my ex wrote me a letter for christmas and its so nice i kept it even after we broke up but theres this bit where they compared us to the sun and moon and idk here it is:

“I’m Sun ‘cause I love positivity and kindness… and you’re the moon. Mysterious, beautiful, enchanting and you light up the dark. You help guide those in darkness like the moon to sailors late at night… Although opposites in quite significant ways (you love english i like maths) they are quite perfect for each other.”

but this is probably the most romantic thing ill get and i love it so u keep it in my purse, yeah ik people say to move on and get rid of things that remind you of your ex but i dont think you always have to especially if you ended on okay terms

Do i own a violin? Yes

Do i know how to play? No

Did i learn as a child but give it up because “it wasn’t helpful and nobody else played it”? Yes

Do i regret that everyday of my life? Also Yes

“you make my heart beat in iambic pentameter.”

no you don’t understand shakespeare literally writes to the beat of your heart

that’s why shakespearean actors will sometimes pound their chests in time to the words during readings

that’s why you use fluctuations in the rhythm to track your character’s emotional state - any irregularities in the scansion are like the character’s heart stuttering or jumping or skipping a beat

that’s why when characters share the rhythm - switching off in the middle of a foot - those characters inevitably have an extraordinarily intimate connection

shakespeare fucking writes viscerally, he is literally in your body, and that, my friend, that is why the best shakespearean actors don’t posture and emote

you have to be fucking alive and passionate and electric - it can’t be intellectual, in the end, it has to be about connection and the sweating, cheering, jeering, bleeding masses you’re performing to, because make no mistake, shakespeare may go to lofty heights, but he only works if you’re just as grounded in the earth. he has to be in your body. he has to be in your body.

holy motherfucking shit i love shakespeare so much, get him in your bones, breathe him in, stomp and rage and pine, dadum dadum dadum dadum dadum, it is literally to the beat of your heart

Coursework

Hi, can some of yous leave recommendation’s for fiction books on/about female obsession