1. Last Year The Doctor Told Me That This Kind Of Sadness Is Inherited. That They Have Discovered That

1. Last year the doctor told me that this kind of sadness is inherited. That they have discovered that sometimes it skips a generation. That the darkness inside me did not grow from nowhere it came from somewhere. I thought to myself, that there is a reason why I have always thought my heart was an attic where I hid pieces of myself. Pieces no one ever wanted. 2. The first boy I ever chose to show this sadness to decided to take it from my attic heart and planted it inside my soul instead. It was easy for him. My soul was a garden I showed him too soon. And he decided that meant he was allowed to take anything he wanted to. 3. Every man who has dared to love me since, has stared at this dark ivy covered soul like it is a haunted house, and I have never tried to explain the thing I have always known. Because men do not have to learn how to open their own selves and lock themselves up again. They are taught to be themselves and the world will accept them better that way. We are taught to break our bodies to be loved. We are taught to confuse sex and love. 4. I knew a girl whose father left her and she took all of her love for him and ate it to comfort herself. People joked how she lived in the kitchen. No one saw her tears when she ate. 5. A friend once told me that she locked herself inside the closet when her parents fought because her father beat her mother and she wished herself into the wood, just so she knew what it was like to be an inanimate object that couldn’t hear or feel anything. 6. My mother told me, that it is the way of the world for girls to grow into women by locking secrets inside themselves. Till now I still imagine every woman I have ever met as a big beautiful house. Full of secret rooms, hiding places, once filled with innocent laughter and joy. Now slightly sad and forgotten because of all those lost places inside them full of secrets.

Nikita Gill, The House Inside Her (via meanwhilepoetry)

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7 years ago

things i learnt regarding learning languages

recently i finished second stage of linguistic olympiad, which focuses on translating rare languages based on logical analysis, basically you don’t know the language but there is a logic rule you have to guess to translate things, yeah, its fun, now im waiting for the results of the second stage.

the thing is, after practicing, doing many problems from previous years, i found myself understanding languages’ rules easier. i’ve always been convinced that to learn language is not to learn the rules by heart, but to understand them, so here are my tips based on that:

1. native speakers are your best resource. some may disagree due to them often not being aware of certain grammar rules, but thats the point. learn the usage, not the rules. rules will come naturally to you when you analyse them for yourself based on using the language. 

2. ive been learning russian for almost 2 years now and my teacher has been focusing on remembering the rules, as if thats the best way to learn the language. so we didnt have much access to any context, not to mention poorly made textbooks. but now that ive become familiar with lots of usage, i dont need to stress about the rules, but base the grammar on previous, similiar contexts.

3. you dont need the rules unless youre majoring philology. for real, i understand that its not your native language, but whats so bad about treating it as one? learn it just like kids would. use it.

4. about using it, put yourself in native speaker’s position, change the language of your fav sites, talk to people even if you dont know much yet, stop stressing about grammar. imagine people talking to you without using cases, conjugations - youre still gonna understand them, so why not start with that yourself?

summary:

- analyse the grammar yourself instead of learning written rules (thats also gonna make you remember it better)

- vocabulary > grammar

- make friends with native speakers

- embarass yourself, make mistakes, talk bullshit - its all a way to success

7 years ago
Hope Is A Weapon. Survival Is Victory.
Hope Is A Weapon. Survival Is Victory.
Hope Is A Weapon. Survival Is Victory.
Hope Is A Weapon. Survival Is Victory.
Hope Is A Weapon. Survival Is Victory.
Hope Is A Weapon. Survival Is Victory.
Hope Is A Weapon. Survival Is Victory.
Hope Is A Weapon. Survival Is Victory.
Hope Is A Weapon. Survival Is Victory.
Hope Is A Weapon. Survival Is Victory.

Hope is a weapon. Survival is victory.

Dunkirk (2017) dir. Christopher Nolan


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Beyoncé’s Maternity looks // 2017

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7 years ago

new aesthetic: man covered in cacti, surrounded by confused police

7 years ago
The Real Allies

the real allies

7 years ago

I do wish to see you again, at a less miserable time, when our lives are not as hectic as it was before, when chaos have found home in whole new place. Then, we shall try love, once more.

Lukas W. // Love again (via somepiecesofmyheartandsoul)

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Check out the zoom on a Nikon P900 camera. 

7 years ago

when you’ve mastered the art of being quietly mentally ill, especially at a young age, being loud only ever feels wrong


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