I’m Scared That I Won’t Be The Soulmate Of My Soulmate.

I noticed that in the last year of letters from Alexander Hamilton and John Laurens, Alexander becomes less affectionate in his letters. In early letters his goodbye’s were always:

But then in the the last several letters Alexander sends to John are but simply signed off with:

In John’s letters to Alexander he doesn’t write much affection- though it becomes obvious through the things he wrote that he really cared for Alexander. When Alexander begins to become distant he starts becoming more protective:

and begins signing off his letters with more affection and in his last letter to Alexander (that we have found) he writes one of the most affectionate things he’s ever written to Alexander

Something must of changed in their correspondence, while Alexander is growing more distant, John is growing more affectionate. The mood changed and Alexander in the last letter he wrote to John seems to have realized how much he missed John writing to him:

His partings change and instead of simply writing “adieu” he begins writing with the affection he wrote with before. It is doubtful that John ever received Alexander’s last letter. Which means John died thinking that Alexander was loosing his love for him. 

do u ever think about someone and ur like: i wanna take care of them so hard??? i want to be their #1 supporter especially during times when they think no one believes in them. i want to comfort them when their thoughts are too loud and i’ll stay up with them all night until they drift off into a peaceful sleep in my arms. like u just wanna b there for them???? and love them endlessly????? and give them affection and so much love that they have never received????

Hand me a cup of coffee, and kiss me tender on my head. Tell me that you need me, and I will believe you even if it is just another pretty lie of yours.

Lukas W. // Pretty lies (via somepiecesofmyheartandsoul)

bye

Selena Gomez - Fetish ft Gucci Mane

Hold up he just might’ve done something 😂 👀