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I’m not TECHNICALLY diagnosed with lupus yet, because I have to see the rheumatologist for more tests. But my ANA is crazy, I definitely have some kind of autoimmune disorder, and I tested negative for RA and Sjögren's syndrome, so like. It’s PROBABLY lupus.

And I’m tired of saying I have “something” or “some weird autoimmune thing” or whatever. I just wanna put a name on it, and right now, that name is lupus.

Dude for real though your worth as a human being is not dependent on how productive or “useful” you are. You could do nothing but lay in bed all today and you’d still be worthy of respect and care. Bro you are a living breathing human being and your life has inherent value. Like straight up you don’t have to do something impossible or world changing with your time on earth in order for you to matter. We are all specks of dust in the cosmos and the fact that you exist at all means you are important. Dude you don’t have to earn the right to live bro, like I swear bro, like no cap.

Y’ALL MY PARTNER AND I WENT TO AN ANTIQUE STORE TODAY AND LOOK

LOOK AT HER.

SHE’S SO SLAY

love how we keep calling it lore. at this point it's flat out plot, dears

Hi Hughie Stone Fish from Lewberger helped write the hippo vore song from puppet history.

Hughie Stone Fish hippo vore.

That’s all I wanted to say thank you.

For the record I do really enjoy yoga, but when my ADHD’s real ramped up the idea of pulling up a yoga video and spending ten minutes stretching and being alone with my thoughts is just not on the table. Like I need something I can do completely independently so I can pop on a really dumb podcast and stop thinking about being in pain for five seconds. And yoga is great but I don’t have the concentration to guide myself through it without instructions.

Really wish all the “low impact” exercise routines I find weren’t hyper focused on like squats and lunges and shit. Like bro, my knees DO NOT WORK. They simply do not function properly. If I do 15 squats today I’m not going to be able to walk properly for literal days.

…….but like I’m so tired and I NEED to work out to help with my fatigue, and I don’t have the attention span for yoga right now. So I do the five bajillion squats anyway.

And I’m stupid so I forget that that’s a bad idea, so when I’m in an incredible amount of pain just walking up and down the stairs for the rest of the week, I’ll be like

Here is my boi Geordi, I will never draw him again because I literally only write about him, enjoy the one time you'll see him.

Wanted to paint this dog

Yes but i was like 10 and my mom wasn’t home so they just sort of handed me a jesus flyer and then left

Part of me is like “wow I wish we as a society would normalize prioritizing platonic love and accept that some people just want to build a life with someone they love without any expectation of sex or romance”

But at the same time I’m gonna keep being happy with my partner no matter what society thinks so like. Y’all can keep being weird about queer platonic relationships if you want, we’ll just be over here finding fulfillment and joy in each other’s company for the next several decades or so.