I'm Tired

"i'm gay" "i'm straight" ok? well i am drowning, there is no sign of land. you are coming down with me, hand in unlovable hand and i hope you die, i hope we both die

I would scream, cry, vomit, try to fucking kill myself but I would never beg someone to not leave me, if they hate me, they hate me. Ther's nothing i can do about it, fuck it then, I'll learn to hate them too. Fuck it, fuck this feeling, fuck it. I would never say it with words.

To be th!n enough people can't tell my sex by looking at my chest

To be th!n enough to have to shop in the children's section

To be th!n enough all the people who patronized me abt my weight are jealous

To be th!n enough to be able to eat freely without worrying about becoming fat

To be th!n enough that they'll all wonder what's my secret

To be th!n enough to be able to look good in anything

To be th!n enough to concern them

To be th!n enough to be treated better

I've been wishing to be th!n for years, every birthday candle and dandelion and star knows it. This will be the year I finally grant my wish. Happy new years, let's become better this year.

yea

“I’m just a girl” first of all you’re a grown ass woman second of all free yourself

that weird abstract emotion where you feel as though you’ll always be an outsider, an observer, even if you’re in the thrust of things and among others. like some tongue rubbing itself at the base of your skull, reminding you of the disconnect. like there is some flexible wall of glass blocking you off from everyone around you. like you’re some kind of strange creature which is only pretending to be human.