Ever Want Social Interaction But You Can't Because You're At Home With No Social Contact/systems ?? Iam

here's a nice contrast with the last one.!! very soft on the eyes -w-

i just watched owl videos for like an hour. i friggin love owls. oh my zoodness they are so cool theyr like cats but they ,. can fly. they even sorta look like cats. i heard one guy in one of the videos say "cat software with bird hardware" i couldn't agree more

win! win! win!!

this song has been stuck in my head fur ,. so long., i wanted to draw smthn inspired off of the amv/lyric video :3

here's the song btw

(okay i want to rant my thoughts here because tumblr and yapping and writing stuff down somewhere and/or posting it helps me actually do something about it or remember. ANYWAYS )

I used to like and identify with my chosen name (IRL) pretty well, but as of lately i haven't been resenting with it as much as i hoped. i'm kinda distancing with it more and here's why

(as if anyone will actually read this)

1: people still associate it fem

like, they would say "oh yeah (chosen name) said she ___" they get the name right but they don't call me "he". i know i could just correct them, and i did for a while, but after a bit, it gets exhausting. i've also had people associate it gender neutral,. "oh yeah she- oh i mean they" like uh. dawg no. dochira demonai. and alongside that, a lot people think i'm nonbinary?? like i just found that out recently and i was like?? ,. ???

2: people keep spelling it wrong, and saying it wrong, and it lowkey annoys me😅

i know that shouldn't matter but. come ONN it doeess. it does.

3: i dont fw it anymore 😞

people change guys . especially when you decide the name at a younger age,.

4: some guy sexualized my name. uh.

wild story, there's a kid on my bus and just today he said that he liked me (he's sexist) (he's straight) him: "i can't resist you🤤" me: "i do not reciprocate" (YEAH YEAH I KNOW THATs SOUNDS ROBOTIC AS FCUK BUT I my brain basically just shuts off after school when i'm not talking to my friends)ANYWAYS his response was somewhere along the lines of "plEASE Please plEAS i'm begging you🥺🥺😭😭😢🙏i can be a worthy man to my woman😏🤓💪" (blehh gross.) i barely know him we don't even go to the same school,. but he always bothers me on the bus in the afternoon)) he then sstarted talking to me weird and acting verrry inappropriate around me and i was sort of just like "okay no thanx 😀" and he kept doing it . then he sexualized my said chosen name (he doesn't know my old one) and like pet talking me and also purposely mispronouncing it and uUGH i don't want to go further into detail.

5: I MIGHT BE STARTING TESTOSTERONE SOON

I'M HIGHKEY EXCITED OH MY GAWWSHH . i feel like with a big change i want even more change to compensate for the . already existing change. uh. (and who knows how much other stuff will change) idk man my brain is weird XD

so yah. lots of reasons. i don't even know what to change it to, but i'm SO leaning on this name that's like. kind of similar to my current one but also not. but i shall explore more. no i wont share it online i just. feel like saying this i guess.

i just realized whenever i have an important post or just a long post in general, i always tend to customize it with the colors n sizes n stuff. that's interesting. i'm gonna keep doing that.

something something advertising blah blah blah

123gocat.etsy.com

(idk if that link would wurkk..)

i made bracelets of my characters spike and thorn! they are canonically a music duo and also boyfriends. :D

here's what they look like if you forgot

*heavy breathing* ONLINE SCARY INTERNET SCARY SOCIAL MEDIA SCARY EVERYTHING SCARY WAUGHH

some art of coal!! i love drawimg black cats :3 she so silly

also i might start comms soon! just might,, it'll be through etsy tho if i do!

what does it mean. what is this. why would you do this. the ourpose? the porpiss? ourple amung hus?

some art bc silly ^w^